For the pen pals… Listen… this one is all to the pen pals… whether you use email or paper mail: This one is for you! (Six Minutes In Length)
For the pen pals… Listen… this one is all to the pen pals… whether you use email or paper mail: This one is for you! (Six Minutes In Length)
Talk about social media addiction with its ensuing paranoia. Continual gratitude to pen pals and describing their beautiful influence in my life. (I welcome more!)
Why and how constructive praise is important. The fun of watching First Year Dark Shadows. A little chat over 16 & 17 – Retrospective for episodes 8, 9, 10, and both parts of 11. Fair delving into characters from The Ghost and Mrs. Muir, The Addams Family, The Munsters, and Bewitched in The Pit; particularly Captain Gregg’s stormy weather – story building as well as technical aspects.
The fleshing out of Caleb Collins as based on evidence from the original Dark Shadows program and historical research in the Victorian time period.
Discussion on the marriage novel, “Margaret Josette Dupres” and delving into why the sharing of further chapters are (currently) suspended.
Welcome To The 21st Century – What A Disappointment.
Downloadable from iTunes, as always…
Background music for this podcast:
“Neightbourhood” – Space (1996)
“Beds Are Burning” – Midnight Oil (1987)
“Warblings At Eve” – “A Victorian Parlour Evening” (written in 1858)
“Some Girls Are Bigger Than Others” – The Smiths (1986)
Just me, no music. Discussion about things, hopefully, getting better, and how to keep that going. The importance of correspondence especially.
Clear reasons why I, and many others, lose their tempers. (Gets a bit loud while this is explained. Not really a rant, more an exclamation of disbelief in contradictory behaviour.) Deep appreciation for the nice people and tools for how to avoid the bummer types, too!
“Spoilers” over scenes one through five, in Episode 16, that are being worked on, as well as the intricate technical aspects that make the idea of critiquing them severely unwanted and unwarranted. (Audio Dramatists? Listen up. You’ll probably enjoy this bit.) Plenty of talk about “Hawkeye” finally being included and what’s happening in scene four with him. I’m not concerned about spoilers when it comes to this radio drama. People can barely remember what they enjoyed in all the other episodes, so why worry?
My old internet days, Sailor Moon, chat rooms, etc. Why fans identify with Angelique and some may not even know it.
A reading from me of Osheen’s review for Episode 7 about one year before this podcast, and my hearty enjoyment of that!
Understanding of the idea of “independence” and how much of an illusion that is.
Not included in this podcast is my suggestion here: If you are wealthy and dissatisfied with your life? Please enjoy the film “The Amazing Adventure” with Cary Grant. Thanks. You’re welcome.
Also available on iTunes
Yep, you’ve been waiting and now you shall finally understand how something as un-important as fanfiction could make so many offended by a love that is presumed “doomed” and “The Pit of Ultimate Darkness”. As many of my readers understand, since I’ve been so extremely honest about it healing my own marriage and how it did, it’s like one helper expressed to me when we were wondering why this story of Barnabas reaching Josette through a reincarnation via Maggie Evans was perpetually dissed and dismissed through an entire generation of time: “Because it’s the truth.”
People who don’t care will show that in their behaviour. Those people will shrug and move on out of disinterest. We haven’t seen that in this household. What we have seen is the obstruction via people being threatened by Barnabas/Josette continually for whatever reason. All I know? I never intended to write this marriage novel. I asked a question to these adopted children of mine one morning when I had an hour to kill prior to getting my shoes on before heading out to work, “What would it be like if you two were married and reached that bedroom Barnabas has been keeping sacred for so long?” And I got my shocking answer. Apparently, sharing links to look for people who also were interested in this pairing, since so many of them had given up ever looking for it but went into a picture-world instead to simply dream about what it could be, invited some nasty fans of Dark Shadows that brought forth opposition to the pairing.
I shall proceed with typed up clips rather than photos I’ve shared of the moderated comments as this will be easier to tend to in a blog post. Some of which have been seen before on this blog. I shall never understand how a major icon of Dark Shadows, whose introduction kept it from being cancelled, has become a vacuum of hate and corruption to fans of the series.
This romance I found obvious by watching the program and not being caught up with the fans of it… is offensive… Why? Well you’re about to find out.
July 4th 2014:
This is trashy and incomprehensible. Is English your first language?
Spoken like a true troll. Attack the language one is using… Well since you can’t contact me to discuss something like this as a person who might actually give a shit, you are a troll and not worth posting your pointless “review”. Also, you obviously haven’t looked over all the M-rated trash on fanfiction.net, henceforth you are a coward and not worth half the time I’m giving you.
July 4th 2014:
“You took a story beloved by millions of people, including me, and turned it into badly written porn. I don’t mind sex scenes but this is offensive.”
Oh, really? In what way? Perhaps since you are posting this bullshit anonymously as the coward you are, even though my email address is everywhere for all and sundry to communicate with? You are the trashy cack-ass who doesn’t give two-shits about Dark Shadows, nor this coupling, and are obviously the person promoting offensiveness and distaste. A story beloved by millions? Let me know who those millions are for this pairing and I would be extensively grateful, shyster.
July 9th 2014:
Julia and Eliot? The gayest guy in Collinsport (which is saying quite a lot)? OMG ROTFLMAO!
And so am I, considering you are trolling my work anonymously and can’t be upfront and just contact me personally as I’ve been asking people to do. You, my dear troll, are a shit-disturber and contribute absolute nothing to the Dark Shadows fandom except nasty reviews at a love you will never comprehend, which is Julia/Eliot. Prof. Stokes expressed to Angelique during the dream curse that she was very beautiful and thus hard to look at. Since you are a f******g homophobe, too, considering you pretty much just called Professor Stokes a faggot, I think you can lie back in the knowledge that you’ve added your disgusting putrescence to a world you proclaim to love. You don’t love it. You hate it. Take a hike and rot.
July 11th 2014:
Reincarnation is ridiculous.
Oh? Was I writing a non-fiction treatise on that? How stupid are you? Why do you even bother with this supernatural soap-opera since people like you continue to be offended by the supernatural elements of it? I seriously believe The Bible and Jane Austen is where idiots like you need to start concentrating your efforts. You’d truly be better off. Now take your puerile bullshit and leave people like us the f**k alone. But you won’t, because your life is so empty and pointless you have to go hunting around online for people to f**k with. Shows how much you matter to anyone. (I speak from experience.)
Moving on. Now we get to the book editor’s troll reviews. This woman contacted me because she was idiotic enough to truly believe that with a multi-fandom there might be money involved in my creation, money that she could possibly gain from my hard effort. My husband and I had quite a time deciphering her rotten advice about contacting DJ’s through a 1980s TV station. Yeah, I know… WTF??? An 80s TV station… but contact the DJs there? What? I should have known better when she was pro-Angelique and called Barnabas a cock-tease. Again… why do people who like these women want to force Barnabas to marry them? I don’t even know!
Anyway, this biotch was a major component to figuring out who the hell to avoid. Ever since then I make sure I find out what pairing people are into before promoting my work to them. There are Dark Shadows fans and then there are people who have some screwed up agenda. My agenda? Find my people, I don’t care what your preference is as long as it’s in keeping with the relief series I’m shooting for. Everyone else? Enjoy the fan work made in the last 40 years and live it up. The rest of us want something different and if you don’t want to come to the party? I don’t give a shit! Fine! Go away!
Oh jeez… Cindy the supposed book editor… There are so many troll reviews… I don’t even know where to start…
The one true love of Barnabas Collins was Angelique. Not Josette, Julia, Vicky, Maggie, Rachel, Kitty, the Roxannes, or Marilyn Monroe. ANGELIQUE! Fanfiction won’t change canon.
Okay… so if it won’t, then… why are you bothering with what I’m doing? You’ve basically been making my own case for me. Good Lord. LOL!
(Anyone notice how she uses names similar to Cindy but vaguely different? P’ff!)
Barnabas loved Angelique all along. She was his “only” love. He said so himself.
Yeah, in a bad story line barely any of us believe. Dream on, loser.
Guest (if one can call her that)
“Canon tells a different story. Angelique The ONLY love of Barnabas Collins (as stated by Barnabas himself) Josette nothing”
Makes you wonder why she is so persistent in trolling this information to me if she is so secure in this knowledge…
Anyone who loved Barnabas would die. Except Angelique since it was her curse. Terribly ingenious. [Says the lady who told me ‘This is hot writing’ and wanted to make money off of me.] And in the end, Barnabas admitted she was his only love. Tough luck Josette.
Tough luck to you, troll, who doesn’t, won’t and never will have a beloved in her life, as *I* do. 😛
Ohhh, cream of the proverbial crop! Check out THIS guest name:
Barnabas’s love transcended time and spanned the centuries-his love for ANGELIQUE. Josette was too much a nit wit to notice.
Yep! That’s why it healed this nit-wit’s marriage. Dream on, troll… dream on.
Barnabas didn’t love Josette. His love “burned as strong” for Angelique as hers for him. His rage was at himself for rejecting her.
Yeah, well we all get rather annoyed at ourselves for certain lusts and for certain troll reviews after proclaiming a “cease and desist communication” and then trolling for seven months after the fact. Idiot. This only changed your life because you couldn’t make money. It changed mine because my marriage was healed. So piss off, f**k face.
Angelique rules! Josette drools. He couldn’t fight true love forever
Geeeeez… this lady is OLDER than I am??? She certainly doesn’t act like it. I enjoy Homeward Bound like the next pet person, but this lady? P’ff!
Guest (if you can call her that…)
Very humourous. Everyone knows that Queen Angelique rules and Josette drools. Barnabas said so himself. Or do you think he was smoking wacky weed? LOL.
No, actually, I think you have been smoking Scotch Broom, the stuff that gives one a major headache and induces vomiting but they force themselves to smoke it because there is nothing else around to imbibe at this point.
Lady, you have spent seven months of your life opposing me because I wouldn’t give in to your fandom appeals. Perhaps you gave me stress, but you spied on my exposing this via facebook as we all laughed our asses off at your expense. And what did I do in response? I kept writing the marriage novel. When I work, I work hard. If you were trying to convince me that Barnabas and Josette did not love each other? Well, I’ve been through the ringer with bullies and I know all the tricks. You only succeeded in making me believe in it, and myself, even more. And I contacted the book firm you suggested to me to let them know what you’d been up to. You edited one chapter without my asking you to and then claimed your notes would be too difficult to comprehend, then sent me the scans of those notes. We looked over them. A seventh-grade English student would understand them.
Honestly? It would make little difference to anyone in Dark Shadows since they are secure in what they know via their understanding of the series, but you’ve proven for all of us that what we’re shooting for is true. Your name is Cindy, and you just left your troll reviews obvious with giving out so many rhyming titles like this:
Maggie was so NOT Josette’s reincarnation. And this silliness that attention from another man would turn Angelique from Barnabas is fundamentally hilarious. It would be for any woman-since when are we so shallow?-but even more so for Angelique. She’d had other husbands but never lost sight of her destiny, which was Barnabas. As he was hers. His ONLY love.
Okay, dumb-ass. Then why are you trolling my work? If this is so true? Why don’t you read the zillion stories about them or write your own? Easy answer: You’re pissed and you know it’s not true. You’re being eaten by a major disease and you can’t be arsed to find something more constructive to do than troll what I’m trying to achieve. (And you still haven’t returned the CDs I sent you as you claimed you would.) I frankly do not give a shit considering you bullied me and confused our household with your bullshit. For all I am concerned you can take your Angelique obsession and rot for all I care. All I did was watch Dark Shadows and all you did was forget about it and get lost in your own ideas of what it was about. I can’t forget because I am working to heal EVERYONE’S hurts, not just Barnabas’. You called him a cock-tease. That is not love. That is some lust-driven sickness.
I would have continued on with Lari’s troll reviews… but for today, I think what I’ve listed here is enough.
I came in to do a relief series because of Sam Evans. Sam Evans’ demise was the last straw for me. But I juggled the issues to get everyone strait. Barnabas and Josette/Maggie were just another set in my adopted nursery, but apparently it’s some major effacing issue in Dark Shadows. I really don’t care. I’m just trying to do the best job I can for ALL of my adoptees. And if you don’t like what I’m doing? Please leave.
I never intended to do the marriage novel, but so far as I can see it’s garnering the best support because fans of it are those that pay attention to all of the characters, not just Barnabas and Maggie.
I am only sharing more links to my audio files online to find people who will help me complete the work so I can carry on with my life. Considering most of my beloved friends have ignored me due to the fact that I don’t have a car, I’m not looking forward to the event coming up soon via my extended relations. Honestly? I don’t want to see them. I don’t want to have to tell them that I have been so disappointed in them about barely caring for us over here. (It’s extremely sad that the internet has not only managed to promote zombie-robot behaviour with device technology which demotes communication, it’s sadder still that those who use it defend that kind of behaviour.)
But look over this blog post and try to tell me that I don’t deserve better for entertaining all of you silent people. Look at the shit I’ve had to deal with. Look at the crap I’ve had to put up with. Read this blog post again and try to tell me that I don’t deserve better. I already know that I do.
I’ve asked over and over for correspondence. I know that my entertainment is good and I want to finish it so I can go back to my original material, should anyone be so deserving of reading it. (I doubt it.)
For Margaret Josette Dupres and The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows? I weep for the future. I truly do
Look a little awkward? It is.
For the last couple of days I’ve had my nerves rattled from it basically being known I am no longer allowed to vent my frustrations about this on my own timeline. Apparently this sparks in others the need to come up with some philosophical advice that covers up their own guilt, or their laziness, or lack of attentiveness. I’ve seen it many times before and I’m not buying it. Okay, let’s say I posted that on a group page. I can see the conversation going down that road. However, this was on my wall, my personal news, and so what was the result of this attempt to make me feel better that really was a method of making everyone else feel better? It’s succeeded in pissing me off for over two days now. As a result, the work has gone much slower. (Thanks.)
I was explaining to my husband a plant has more wisdom. If a plant requires more sunlight? It bends toward it. When it senses water in one direction? It reaches it’s roots there. When I’m looking for my nutrients to reach this suffocating Muse? Humans don’t produce that. They produce cross-references. A good gardener knows that if you don’t maintain the nourishment? It’s your own damn fault if the garden dies. But now that we’re flippin’ around so many distractions, we’d rather argue about where that sunlight and water is. Doing that? Not one measly tomato is going to grow for you. I can tell ya that easily.
I remember I did a podcast intro where I said doing this series, The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows, had been in a cheaper by the dozen method where I did one part over and over, and then the next, and then the next. Today and yesterday I’m noticing it’s better if I go through each scene and add the bits. I’m adding in Milligan & Hecubus’ new performances, but as I’m finding where to put them, I’m raising the pitch on Angelique’s voice and I’m adding in sound effects just so they’re there and I don’t have to hunt for them later. Some will need augmentation or overlapping with lines, and other lines need to be raised in volume, but so far it’s easier to go through Episode 15 this way.
Hmm, then again, now I’m going passed the Victoria, Morticia and Grandmama lines, although I did supply the bubbling cauldron sound effects. I’m fairly happy with what I’ve got for Morticia and Grandmama. I’m not sure if it’s because I’ve been viewing the first episodes of The Addams Family again, but it feels like Carolyn Jones wasn’t as deep as I thought, so what I have is likely just as well until I can study for new radio episodes in the future. We need that family.
Then there is a scene of Maggie and Barnabas looking out the window, the Willie & Sarah scene and then Hecubus says:
“And back in Josette’s aquamarine room of many ornate fixtures.”
I think I like the old performance of this more. It’s so cheerful!
Aw, crap… [laughing] This line for Sir Simon Milligan still gets me. Heaven knows *I* have endured the stink-eye from letting Barnabas and Maggie unite in this… I think it’s just the way Milligan manages to announce it when there is a gathering of the clan at the main house of Collinwood:
“One would expect a number of stink-eyes and suspiciously raised brows at the affection our love-bats are obviously NOT hiding from each other or anyone else.”
All right, now I’m just focusing on our two radio-show hosts. There is too much in between I can see that needs to be altered. Maggie’s lines likely have to be re-performed. Ohhh, her chortling voice! How to reproduce that… Well, I can watch or listen to some Josette Dupres as well and see if I can shoot for a cross-blend now since that’s what’s going on. I’ve wondered how KLS might have performed that given the chance. I guess Bella Heathcote was the only one who got an opportunity to experience that blend. Remember, she does say at the beginning of the film:
My work began years before this… Imagine my shock in the theater!
It reminds me that people treat me like a single person when I’m doing the work of an entire production crew. Not cute, people. Not cute. And the very opposite of helpful, too. As Warren told me, “It’s not like you didn’t explain what you needed. YOU DID!” He’s correct. I did, and I do, repeatedly.
Another dear friend on the grassroots list told me, “That entire discussion you sent me made me completely indignant. These are people you sent CDs to? And you also spend a great deal of your time empathizing with their everyday woes and concerns. You don’t deserve that.” Aye, that’s just it. They’re feeling bad about not keeping up and want to blanket it with something.
Guilt exists for a purpose; it’s to make us change our ways. Sadly some people just wallow in it, try to deflect it with various excuses, but those of better judgement? They either change or they stop feeling guilty. Which is what my husband expressed in one of our workshops. That advice has certainly saved me from a world of misery. It’s likely why I have been better at focusing on creative pursuits. But we’re human, we need others to talk to. Not a great deal of that going around between the internet clutter, I must say.
Now I’m seeing some lines I did twice that are doubled up on the old file as well. Most of the demo was performed in December of 2013, possibly November. I remember I lost my voice for a while at the end of that year. Having re-performed the lines this last week it’s good to use those rather than guess which of the previous performances were better. So the scenes are switching and the hosts lines are being spliced in. There is another scene between Willie & Wadsworth here, then there is one with Barnabas Collins finally meeting with the ghost of Caleb Collins at the seaview property. Time period jokes abound here…
Oh, yes, and now that there is another vampire in town, the dogs are howling again, which is going to freak poor Willie Loomis out. Went through all the howling I had to discern what to place in there to format later. Sad to consider all of this hard work will only be enjoyed by a precious few, but then I think I’ve done enough. I’ve served my time only to get numbers, silence, control freaks and haters who speak up more than the people who enjoy it. I was detailing that with a church group, “We seem to be stuck to only detail what we dislike and we go on about that at length. Not so much what we enjoy unless we’re not thinking about it, really. I’d like that to change.”
As for this scene with Caleb and Barnabas, it’s nice to hear a bit of it again. I think after I finish this audio draft I’ll put it on my player. Maybe that will help motivate me more. As Caleb and Barnabas discuss Maggie…
CALEB: She would be the one to help change this place. You’d be sated at last, and she cares about people far more, with a genuine affection. Like Tom, she’s not just a pretty face either. It’s sad how beauty attracts on the outside so much, when there is so much more to it. Pesky, that is.
BARNABAS: But lovely if that combination can be found and admired all at once. ❤
And now to splice in the final Hecubus line, a sadness creeping in. I possibly need to do that over, but I’d say it’s time to save the file, switch it for listening, 57 minutes and all the extras… Not nearly done, but getting there. Could have done more a lot sooner if I had the fun commentary, but ah well. Just have to plug away and await an online change in people… that likely will never occur.
WADSWORTH: Sir? I’ve made an effort to clean your staring window if you’d like to make use of it.
Thanks Wadsworth. I think the clarity is coming from your astute considerations. As aforesaid, in my 14th intro, I’m now doing many of the voices for this radio play separately. Today I listened intently to Jonathan Frid’s performance of Barnabas Collins. I found various inflections I might have missed. He did go through some trouble to bring those H’s in where A’s were applicable to the standard American speech and I also made a concerted effort not to lower my own voice. Jonathan Frid’s voice deserves higher tones of inflection and if it doesn’t sound male enough I can lower the pitch on sentences or various words. I felt good about that.
For Episode 15: A Blundering Succubus, Barnabas Collins had to swat away The Collinsport Fly (another breaking through the 4th wall which I haven’t done for a while), speak with his beloved Josette through Maggie Evans in Josette’s room, try to determine who Kitty Soames is or was, look with her out the window at Willie and Sarah interacting, take Maggie with him to Elizabeth’s family gathering at the Main House to discover she was going on an extended vacation and then meet with…
Ah, her casual assertions about vampires certainly gave him the willies!
One of the reasons he even goes into that study where Maggie and Lily are having a chat is because of the coffee they are drinking. Elizabeth tempts him:
ELIZABETH: Cousin Barnabas…(pointedly) it’s Borgia.
ELIZABETH: The coffee blend… it’s Borgia…
BARNABAS: (snorts) I see! You really wanted to get me in there, didn’t you?
And? I have tried SO desperately to find out whether or not this might be accurate, either for Barnabas Collins OR Jonathan Frid. I remember there was a Q & A KLS was holding on a website years ago. I tried to ask, “What coffee was his favourite?” De nada! 😛
After that I called our Auntie. I think I’ll save that conversation for another blog post but it was good. She pretty much agreed with me about the laziness and troubles I’d been having. More complex than that, but worth a blog entry I think.
I am now going through Sir Simon Milligan and Manservant Hecubus’ lines which I re-performed a few days ago. They seemed fine on the demo but I just felt like I should try it again. If anyone has updated themselves with these guys via youtube you might have noticed I posted appreciation to the lady who made it easier for me. (I believe in saying “thank you”. I do not simply like-click shit. lol!) Currently I’m going through those new lines and seeing which ones make the cut. I am leaving a little extra in via stuff I can’t decide on. So far Hecubus’ old lines are remaining here and there. Mostly it will be the new stuff that stays.
Also was on Skype with Cara Mia over the holiday weekend. I read her the new (actually old) scene with Morticia, Victoria and Grandmama Addams. This was excellent because I have a hard time with the Addams Family and need the help. I want to make sure all the characters are accurate. When I got to a line via Grandmama or Morticia I’d ask, “Does that sound like her or them?”
“Oh, yes! It does!” she would answer. *happy sigh*
Then I reached the end of the scene and said, “That’s it.”
“Oh!” she said, “Okay… hey, wow! That scene was really, incredibly good!”
Bless you, Cara Mia. Bless you. ❤
I just don’t understand. Usually when someone makes a person laugh that person tells them what was laughed at, or when they are touched they express that. I want to give more, I want to do more, and I want to get through it.
If anyone tried to post comments on podomatic that didn’t go through please let me know. The only comments that I didn’t let through were double postings of the same comments. (Helena and I are discussing email traffic so I can post her comments when she can’t get in.)
I’ve worked so hard, I’ve spent so much, I’ve given so much and I just want to go on. I remember a day last year when two writers were so excited to be posting their new chapters… I was happy for them. They were looking forward to what their audience might say. Then I went to my kitchen to eat my lunch.. and I couldn’t. I was in tears. “This isn’t fun for me anymore. This is a slow death because people can’t talk to me about what they enjoyed.” And I just kept crying.
I don’t understand. Most of the people enjoying this are writers and artists. Why is it so hard to type up a synopsis of what was enjoyed then copy and paste it into a review box? Of all that I’ve done, of all that I want to do, how is it people have become so inhuman?
In any case, here is the text link to it. Episodes unfold in various buttons and drop down menus. I doubt this will do anything but as many have said, “I have to try.”