The Love of Dr. Julia Hoffman

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Yep, don’t hear too much about this. It looks like even The Riddler can keep these goodies from us. But be it a riddle or no, it is true. We do have love for Dr. Julia Hoffman.

Haters of her do exist, as well as those who dislike her, but I rarely run across them. When I first saw Dr. Julia Hoffman coming into play on Dark Shadows I thought, “Whoah, she’s got some nerve.”

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My own irritation with that dwindled as time went on. She seemed to calm down when she came to Collinwood and got lost in the swirl of so many problems. As like with Willie Loomis, once a person has to identify with the hurts of others they become more empathetic and concerned. I remember Quentin Collins changed as well when he found himself in a situation he couldn’t control.

For sympathizers of Dr. Julia Hoffman we have some of the best possible people, we truly do. They not only love Julia and the Julia/Barnabas romantic pairing, but who else do they love?

Barnabas Collins

Barnabas Collins

They love him romantically, or lustily, or as a friend. They say, “Oh, it would¬†have been nice if he reciprocated Julia Hoffman! I like that idea. She cared so much about him.” They also express themselves with sincerity as a fan of anything else. I’ve often heard from them, “Now you know I’m a Julia/Barnabas fan,” before moving forward with something fun and chatty about my work. It doesn’t bother me to hear this. It’s said in a well-grounded way that someone would tell me, “Well, you know I’m really into The Beatles rather than Depeche Mode”. It’s like the love of a music preference while maintaining people have other favourites in their lives.

The other thing lovers of Julia Hoffman tell me is, “Wow! Professor STOKES?! For Julia? That’s a splendid idea! I hadn’t thought of that. Professor Stokes is great¬†and he was interested in¬†Julia too!”

Super Stokes

He’s groovy, he’s cool, he has a monocle!

And generally? Julia lovers like a lot of things. They are upbeat, winning and they know the difference between reality and fantasy. “Hey, it’s just a story. It’s a good story, but we’re pretending and we’re exploring that. No big deal.” Occasionally they do shake a fist at Barnabas Collins for not loving Julia, but they do it once and then they’re done. ūüôā

Julia lovers have a fair grasp of psychology as well and look at themselves and their lives as such, similar to Julia herself. They meet with Julia-extremists thinking they’ve found a kindred-soul, then watch further seeing the odd behaviour that comes out and…¬†slowly back away. “Oh dear,” they think, “this isn’t going down as I expected. This person has, uh, more than an enjoyment of Julia/Barnabas. In fact, I’m not sure they truly are enjoying what they’re going for.”

I, myself, felt the need to analyze all this to try and figure out what the hell was happening¬†with my own work getting so darned much silence and for so long. That is changing but 2014 wasn’t the best year of my life. I’ve been through ringer with fans of all sorts. As patiently as I could. I wasn’t often given that gesture of kindness in return. It builds up on ya. (Believe me, like-clicks a go-go and friend requests on facebook without discussion as to why increases¬†that confusion, too.)


Lovers of Julia Hoffman have been some of the better supporters to what I’ve put together. They see a unique method of handling both Julia’s woes as well as that of Barnabas Collins, not to mention everyone else. And because of the likelihood¬†that the Julia/Barnabas pairing is popular they were never afraid to speak up nor get nasty about Julia/Eliot. They like the characters for themselves and have a preference for the positive. They don’t grind their teeth watching Dark Shadows, but usually respond to bad things occurring on it¬†with a breath of, “Oh, noooo… *sigh* Well, it IS a soap-opera.”

The concern of sympathy for Julia Hoffman’s love of Barnabas Collins can be summed up in that one word:

Sympathy.

That’s what makes these fans some of the best for Dark Shadows. They appreciate the struggles everyone had to go through, not only the characters but the creators of the program. They also sympathize with anyone facing hardship and, like Julia, want to help. They haven’t been scared away by anyone going nuts at them for being a fan of Julia/Barnabas, whereas fans of Roxanne, Maggie and Josette have been hit with the troubles of not being a Julia/Barnabas fan. Julia lovers are not only easy-going but they care about coming to the bottom of a problem. They listen intently, they look at as many details of a situation as possible. Very important when it takes that kind of comprehension to keep track of so many wild things going on in Dark Shadows.

These lovers of Julia or Julia/Barnabas have turned out to be some of the best people I have ever encountered online. Being less fragmented by not feeling outnumbered they keep to concerning themselves with friendship and communication. They enjoy a lot of things beyond Dark Shadows. They also enjoy Star Trek as several other listeners of mine have told me. If I had a dollar for every time we have detailed discussions about Star Trek and Star Trek: The Next Generation I might have just enough money to pay for half of The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows.


Back in the late 1970s, Harlan Ellison described peoples difficulty with science-fiction, mainly those in charge of our entertainment, “They see machinery, they see machinery and they think that’s what science-fiction is and it isn’t. It’s about people and the effect of the future on people. They can not get it through their heads.”

Lovers of Julia Hoffman also know that it’s about people, all kinds of people, everything is related and a persons feelings are important. They have never shrugged off my hurts at making so many laugh and never getting to find out what they laughed at or why. They’ve seen my temper flare and they come to me quickly with concern telling me, “I know you, and I know you aren’t mean-spirited… heh, heh, heh, actually, some of your sarcastic comments left me in stitches!”

Julia sees Eliot

Yes, we love Dr. Julia Hoffman and we know she’s a big-girl.

Her happiness is our happiness, as well as everyone’s happiness even when we, ourselves, are not doing so well.

Loving Julia Hoffman for herself means we¬†love everyone for who they are and want to help. Please, keep it up! This is a good thing and I heartily endorse it. ‚̧

Peace.

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Blemishes of Discouragement… BUT… Plans for The Future (And How One Can Help)

Well, I’ve been through the ringer and back and here I am. It’s gotten to the point where I’m so close to restoring the magic but what will it take to get there? Discussion. I posted how empty and lifeless I was feeling, hoping that February would kick start after the Hell of January was over. Looks like the Hell still isn’t over. Almost everywhere I look people are still distracted or they’re falling to pieces.

That makes me wonder what sense of suffering my listeners endure and due to that suffering they understand the major pairing so much more. Still, it doesn’t change the fact that they’re suffering and therefore let me know, “Um… I haven’t listened to the episodes yet.” Great, so who did enjoy all that dramatic crap I had to go through for Episode 12, anyway? I know 13 reached some people who said a bit and knew it was coming, oddly the scream match from the first scene in 13 was a high prize indeed. So… did the points of it come across or was it just the dramatic essence of it? Actually, I’m slightly aware that one portion carried through. Ah… bookclub discussion. What a concept. Anyone know any bookclubs out there? Maybe they could pick up on this.

Finally had a good weep last night and likely long overdue. Beats all the rages I’ve gone into for the last year getting harassed and dealing with the DS clutter, heck, a lot of the clutter from all the fandoms. An online entertainer looking for the chat to refuel the energy¬†and then being told not to ask for it, or just having my questions ignored. It’s humour and tons more. Then tweaked out haters posting crap about me where I can’t see it anyway. So address me just randomly where I can’t see it when my email address is… I dunno… EVERYWHERE? Talk about twisted. Free advertising, yo! I was wondering why my downloads got so high all of a sudden when I wasn’t posting anywhere. DOY! How many people got that free advertising, took a listen and thought, “What the hell are they complaining about? This is entertaining and sounds like hard work, too!”

Then people invalidating what I’m doing and my research and then wondering why I blocked them. Double-duh. “Huh? Where’d she go?” Away from your sorry sight. And I’ve seen it all before, too! In school. And then, “Oh, just ignore the negative.” Um, with no positive towards the work? Not bloody likely. Any one around here remember people saying ignore the bullies at school, and then… the¬†same people¬†send you back to said school to endure them? WTF?

Actually one guy who mentioned how the 1840 episode of Barnabas really loving Angelique made him worry his head would explode? I mentioned to him coming in to so many freaky fans was like a psychologist’s dream… or nightmare… I’m not sure which. He seemed to dig on that. I remember him saying a while back, “This is pretty heavy, but you should see some Tom Waits fans.” LOL! I know a few, never saw behavior like this… okay, maybe a little. (Actually there is¬†a Tom Waits song I’d like to use for a podcast.)


I think one of the troubles is the catch-up from 19 months of material and then creating the audio, then the technical aspects and not getting the help, except from Written In Blood, Hallelujah! Making it easily accessible was not easy. But audio is more attractive to a lot of people than text. Plus, as the previous post mentioned, this reaches vaster realms and a DS series with so many fun extras? It’s gonna be the youthful, gregarious¬†girl Mr. Big Cake gets. Those shows wouldn’t go down the usual lines of DS work. So we’re hitting up those types anyway, the Dark Shadows lovers, which was what I wanted, not the Dark Shadows junkies. The people who love the characters rather than all of the bickering. And they love the spooky, and the humour Dark Shadows does naturally have. It’s there. As in an earlier episode where Victoria and Carolyn wonder where one could go on a date. They laugh, “Well, you could go to The Blue Whale and get mixed up in a fist brawl.” LOL (I’d watched soap operas before. I never saw humour like this in any of them.)

Another trouble is… *sigh*

Willie pretty

Mr. Loomis

He’s a tough one, but I have missed him. Writing him in text isn’t nearly as fascinating, scary, difficult, nor as rewarding as the tandem we shared over a year ago as I learned to have and to hold with both channeling, writing, and acting his performance. It is truly another world when this man takes over your being. I don’t think I ever would have fallen in love with him if it wasn’t for tapping in to his character so damn closely. But it’s hard to adopt this baby and then send him forth with no caring words as to how people feel in what comes out. (Two scenes are out now and so little has been voiced for him already.)


Strangely there is one point of motivation, and it’s not Episode 14, it’s Episode 15. It needs work in the writing, but not much and I feel like that is the final step in getting the magic to return to this series, finally. Episode 15 engages more character changes, with Willie looking back at how Professor Stokes treated him in his calligraphy work and what effect that had on him, as he relates it to Wadsworth. Episode 15 has Angelique returning as a vampire, and even beginning to question herself after some humourous foibles. Things aren’t working out as they once did. Why aren’t they? And now that I’m thinking about it, who am I, anyway? And what have I been doing all this time?

Also this is at the point I’m going to try and narrow down the length of time via word count as best I can by Episode 16. (I do remember how I developed the lay-outs before in text, but I realize I’ll be a little rusty before the inspiration returns.) If 14 is done 15 can get into full swing, as well as the whole series again. ūüôā

Episode 15 has announcements and plans, people meeting who haven’t met before, things starting to change both for the better and for the worse. And after that? With enough support? Well, look at what I’ve already done. You think I’m not capable of that magic again? Remember, when Helena stepped in I went from writing one episode a month to writing four in October of 2013. And when I chunked the text in exasperation of neglect? (I was positive with the audio I’d get the support easily. No. Oops.)¬†I created six podcasts by November of the same year with the radio drama episodes attached. ¬†I told everyone how this works in my seventh intro. Does anyone¬†want it to go faster? That’s the question.


So looking over the commentary for Episodes it looks like just enough for Ep. 5 has happened! Excellent¬†to see the kind of slice I’m looking for:

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I looked over Episode 6 and it appears to have just squeaked out enough. It is Episode 7 that’s lacking one fairly chunky discourse, but of course, I must love this for Episode 7: “The Blair Warlock Projected”

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Comments such as, “What the Hell? Hahahahaha!” well… you have no idea how this alone has cheered me up. People who can’t say much can always throw in bits like that. They’re delicious appetizers. And are so repeatedly. This is why commentary is good. People like me re-find them and get tickled all over again. (I’m rather certain this was in response to the episode title. I told ya it was funny!)


Ah! Back to the point. So it’s Episode 7 that needs one more big hug. (Episode 8 seems also to have squeaked by with the needed five.) Episode 9 “The Wisdom of Mayhem requires one more on the details of it’s delight. Episode 10 “The Kids Are Alright” requires one more. Episode 11 is split in two parts, so part one requires just another good comment, while part two still requires two different ones. (Man, I guess the ghost of Caleb Collins truly is that scary.)

However the one that requires 3 sets of comments is Episode 12 “Dark Therapy” which is the darkest one so far but still has quite a bit of humour, especially in that huge list of inventions between 1795-1968. (That was a ton of homework for me btw.) I’m curious if anyone felt completely sunk by that last line and the ending song. Verne Langdon actually singing it is pretty heartfelt and depressing¬†when I’d only known instrumentals of it for so long.

Also Episode 13 requires 3 sets of comments. That one was TRULY a pain to edit. Good night, Irene.

A-ha. The damage for lack of just enough commentary isn’t so bad as I thought. With 13 Episodes finished we just need 11 to:

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Simply put to solve the trouble, bookclub commentary, or even bullet lists of what was laughed at, are needed for:

Episode 7: The Blair Warlock Projected

 https://www.fanfiction.net/s/7833887/7/The-Pit-of-Ultimate-Dark-Shadows

Episode 9: The Wisdom of Mayhem

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/10085518/9/The-Pit-of-Ultimate-Dark-Shadows-Lily-Munster-Version

Episode 10: The Kids Are Alright

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/7833887/10/The-Pit-of-Ultimate-Dark-Shadows

PART ONE of Episode 11:

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/10085573/11/The-Pit-of-Ultimate-Dark-Shadows-Bewitched-Version

PART TWO: of Episode 11:

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/7833887/11/The-Pit-of-Ultimate-Dark-Shadows

Episode 12 “Dark Therapy”

http://xoiscythe.podomatic.com/entry/2014-08-07T20_26_59-07_00

Episode 13 “A Balancing of The Humours”

http://xoiscythe.podomatic.com/entry/2014-12-20T16_00_25-08_00

All links provided allow for anonymous commentary. And then what shall we get?

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Hellooooo, Handsome

Thanks for your support. ūüôā

The Halloween DJ is… ALIVE… but… may not be able to help. :(

21 July 2014 at 22:00

On Saturday… ¬†Daryl Wor¬†<xoiscythe@hotmail.com>¬†wrote:
¬†Hey Casper, I have been looking for you all over the web. I hope you’re okay. I tried your old email account. Then I couldn’t find your home address. I wouldn’t be surprised if you don’t live there anymore. But I found this email address on an old invite you sent when I was looking for your home address. I have been working my tail off trying to engage college DJs and even though you likely don’t DJ anymore I thought you might at least know someone. We still have no car and it’s been such a rough year. I’ve been producing a radio series online and it’s got spooky characters galore and tons of humour, thousands of downloads but barely any response. My husband and I have spent thousands on this thing but without listener participation it has lead me into some of the darkest realms and rages of temper in my entire life. I pray you’re all right. Please help. Daryl

Date: Monday… Subject: “Re: Casper? Please tell me you’re not truly a ghost now…” Hey Daryl! I’m sorry I’ve been so hard to track down lately! I’m not on any social networks these days and without making any official announcement, I’ve gradually shifted over to this email out of frustration with the other. I’ve been really busy lately and behind on just about everything… thanks for reaching out. Sorry to hear you’re having a rough time. What’s this new project all about? Hmm, I’m not really sure if I can help. I don’t DJ anymore, except maybe once a year… there’s one fellow at the station that usually invites me back to do a show in October. Other than that I’m pretty out of touch with college radio and to be honest, quite disillusioned! But feel free to tell me more about what you have in mind. Happy Haunting and be sure to say hi to your husband, Casper

CASPER! (Yes. I literally screamed!) Hallelujah I hope! Oh my gosh. I almost sent you one the postcards I made for this project but I lost your old address in my bag. Bah… probably not where you are now anyway. I applaud you for staying off social network sites. They’ve been eating me alive. (Still no car.) Not only that,¬†the fans of my base work have eaten me alive in the last 10 months. They get my product but most refuse to discuss it with me, many unfamiliar names simply like-click. GAH! I need younger people. Now how to describe this fright of frights we’ve parboiled in. Imagine… if you will… almost all the 1960’s spooks coming together, or sending help from afar… That is, these folks:

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Morticia and Gomez Addams

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 Lily Munster 

Captain Daniel Gregg

 Captain Daniel Gregg

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¬†Wadsworth from Clue (yes 1985, but he’s from 1954 and reached over)

And a few not so 1960’s interrupting a long story-line to solve one horrible, screwed up place?

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 Collinsport.

Yes…

*WEEP*

I went there.

And I couldn’t take it!¬†

And although I have wonderful fans of my horizon-goal marriage novel (which ended up being erotica if you can believe I had that talent…¬†I didn’t.) but the radio drama is a comedienne’s¬†worst nightmare! Funny as Hell without hearing anyone’s laughter. I have truly spiraled out of control from a neglect of inordinate talent, hard work and money with almost no reward,¬†serious¬†negativity,¬†stalkers¬†trying to control it,¬†trolls¬†attacking the erotic & hopeful wind-up novel, and people who have despised Barnabas Collins for longer than I’ve been alive for not reciprocating Dr. Julia Hoffman… GOOD LORD!

I just listened to all of these characters the best I could to give them all what they wanted without invalidating each other. Anyone real who’s stepped in to help so far has either disappeared, been fragmented by communicating their enjoyment, felt guilt they didn’t do it with the aged text version for years so they just keep silent, had a fit over Endora being in there, or have been so negative and aloof that it doesn’t support me at all. Even 99 % of my closest friends won’t help me with this. They’re all eaten up by device and internet distractions.
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Now I’m trying to contact college radio stations and getting either nothing, ooo, maybe or, “Hey, that’s copyrighted and…” *sigh* Noooooo…. it’s¬†ME! I’m doing all the voices, acting, writing, editing, audio splicing. I can’t make a profit! If it was illegal even people merely¬†writing¬†this stuff would get sued. (And I can make copies with NO intros for air play. Intros are podcast. Most people do NOT understand this. Ugh!)
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I sure *will* say hi to my husband for you! The main good this whole thing has done is healing our marriage. Please… ¬†please…¬†PLEASE¬†tell me you are either¬†for¬†or have absolutely NO angst about a reincarnation of Josette Dupres being an okay solution to this spiky banged weirdo’s troubles!

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Deep breath…

Here are the links to the various versions:

http://xoiscythe.podomatic.com/

https://archive.org/details/Podcast_The_Pit_of_Ultimate_Dark_Shadows

and yes… even iTunes… of which I had help from¬†no one!¬†UGH!

https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/pit-ultimate-dark-shadows/id808980956?mt=2

and if you’d like something short… here’s how I had to analyze these insane fans! (Including myself…)

Analysis of Preferred Pairings For Barnabas Collins

Daryl

P.S. Help? Of any kind? Pretty please? Um… boo?

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