Pit Update March 2017

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A “sickie” podcast for new pen pals and old listeners alike.

This is a very newsy and studious monologue. I’ll address what’s going on with the letter-writing method of listening to the series and knowing that many who want to hear this can’t always download or play it via having poor equipment.

Lots of discussions of people I’m talking with lately: Auntie, Jonah, etc.
Identifying interruption fan fiction and how it works with Osheen Nevoy and Lisa Weyenberg’s works as key examples.

Tons of spoilers for The Pit and later on a lot of spoilers for the marriage novel I’m creating in tandem. As per usual, this talk and explanation is quite cerebral, as well as moving back and forth discussion on various show characters being responsible for solutions in The Pit, including Endora and Uncle Arthur from “Bewitched”, as well as Wadsworth, Captain Gregg, Lily, and Morticia.

Plenty of goodies about Doctor Who coming into play for The Pit and exactly why he will.

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And yes, it is downloadable from iTunes, as always...

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Building Further Episodes (January 2017)

I’ve been taking a little break from channeling Beetlejuice. As some of you know, or maybe you don’t, my online insanity rather bursts into regions unknown with that character. Our bio-exorcist is the type who can do good things while giving you the illusion he is rotten to the core. When I empathize with him, which has actually been very easy, his manner of lashing out for not getting his strong abilities recognized speaks to me deeply and in a way that resounds with that constant dismissal I’ve been handed throughout the years. He screams the words:

“You buncha LOSERS! You’re workin’ with a PROFESSIONAL HERE!!!

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Hee hee hee, YEAH! I hear ya, old friend! I sure as Hell hear ya!

SO! Remembering that the radio drama originally came in layers, and patterns of blending those layers, I am currently repeating Dark Shadows Disk # 67, or for those with the different sets it’s Collection 11 Disk 3. This is when our lovely Chris Jennings arrives and I must say it’s a treat to watch him!

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(Yes, I can write romantic Barnabas in first person with his fancy-woman, but it’s not him I’m in love with. I simply learned how to do that because I understand Barnabas. It’s Don Briscoe I really swoon over. Ha ha!)

And now that I look over these episodes I think I’ve found another reason Tony Peterson was inexplicably neglected for this daytime-drama. Adam is also about to randomly disappear, so they can switch Carolyn’s love interest yet again! I mean, who hasn’t Carolyn gone through? She starts in the series with Joe Haskell (not bad!), then gets very, very distracted by Burke Devlin.  Eventually we glory in her wild romance with Buzz Hackett for the sake of retaliation at the ridiculousness of her mother, Elizabeth, being engaged to Jason McGuire (HURL!). Buzz was a fun one, for sure! I approve of Carolyn & Buzz and not as a long-term romance by any means. Just as the marvelous joy-ride that it is. (I dare say if all y’all haven’t experienced one of those flings? Ye haven’t lived!)

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Then we have Tony Peterson. Out of all the paramours Carolyn Stoddard had, this one struck me as that final pinnacle she was reaching for. Her romance with Tony was interrupted by Adam (among other troubles) and then eventually just left unwritten about. As Tony and Adam are subtly missing, let’s stretch over to Carolyn and… Chris Jennings? Well, okay. That makes sense for a soap-opera. But knowing their family ties, as some of us fans do, watching them kiss is disturbingly close to seeing Princess Leia romantically kiss (her brother) Luke Skywalker in “The Empire Strikes Back”. Ewllllll…

So with Chris Jennings coming into Dark Shadows we can get a feeling of why Tony Peterson was dropped from Carolyn Stoddard’s flesh-market. Will this happen in The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows? Not bloody likely.

Q: What about Jeb Hawkes or the idea of Ned Stuart for Carolyn?

A: Forget it!

Besides which, Chris Jennings love for Sabrina Stuart always remains in the picture. One fan-writer delights me with further adventures of this couple. They are simple, but very fun, goodies.

This set of Dark Shadows episodes (635-644) displays an awful lot of crying and screaming. There are also Adam bits I skip, but plenty of Victoria and Peter (I don’t call him Jeff) that is wonderfully revealing and very usable for their Pit escapades in The Addams Family home. Betsy Durkin’s portrayal of Victoria Winters helps in that her voice is very close to the original Victoria. When I look away I can easily envision Alexandra Moltke. (Well done, Ms. Durkin!) The details to themselves and their love in these parts are very rewarding.

Amy Jennings is extremely pivotal and what ensues in her adventures with David shouldn’t be a tight squeeze for The Pit. We’ve got Sarah Collins’ ghost but she has other friendships and will likely understand that what David encounters with Amy is more important than her being neglected by David Collins. Sarah may also have The Ghost of Captain Daniel Gregg (from The Ghost & Mrs. Muir) to consult, as well as Sam Evans who knows him.

The only pains of discarding a component is Elizabeth not being there. In this segment of Dark Shadows I always loved that it was Elizabeth & Barnabas holding down the fort together, working as a team. (This is something I adored in the 2012 film, as well; Elizabeth & Barnabas running the estate together. It just felt right.) Now? I get the challenge of trying to figure out how Barnabas and ROGER will do this! Ah—h-h-h-! It is possible though. One thing at a time.

Mainly what is good is getting back to true friendships and interactions. (The shock of such a frightful loss in old friends is still severe. Knowing I’m not the only one suffering this loss definitely helps.) The mail is adding up so I have company on paper to exchange while the shows play repeatedly before me. And with pen pals it’s wonderful to find renewed vigor for The Pit. These listeners are hearing old episodes as if they are brand new and the enthusiasm comes. Yes, that old habit in newbies of wanting to advise tweaking things also comes but I do my best to shake it off. (One might as well request that The Smiths reform and re-record the album “Meat Is Murder”. It’s simply not going to happen.)

Also I get a little information here and there of, “Daryl! Such-and-such happens to so-and-so in later episodes!” as if it’s going to have some devastating effect on The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows. I have to explain, more than once, that things have irrevocably changed for our beloved characters in this radio drama already. Remember the laws of Cause & Effect. There are multiple beauties I’ve had to discard from the original run of Dark Shadows because The Pit runs in differing lines.

The research is still important to understand the characters, yes. Why? Because of what we learn in the story of “Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind”.

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If you’ve watched this movie you see that even when memories are erased the people involved make the same decisions regardless. Change doesn’t happen in personality with the erasure of memories. It happens with growth. How do I know this to really be true?

I’ve audio recorded thousands of conversations with friends and family. When I played the tapes on occasion some of the same people recorded are present. They will hear a friend who isn’t there express something on the recording and then whoever is currently present will make the exact same responses in conversation that they made on that past recording. I’ve watched this happen several times. And then the person who says that present thing? They hear themselves saying it in the recording and laughter strikes them; they didn’t expect to hear themselves respond the same way as they did months or years previously. But they do. Personality maintains, as well as their humour. It’s almost magical.

And so, in the same way, fictional characters can be put into different situations but still be identifiable as the people we know and love. That’s when you know you’ve got a convincing piece of work. When it stretches into decisions the classic characters would not make? That confuses and fragments the audience, and so we have seen done with a plethora of fan-work. It’s also why many of us grab our heads and cry out together, “WATCH THE SHOW!” Or even better, “LISTEN!” (It’s the sadness in a lot of fan-work. So much was written without the show on hand, just people staring at pictures and reading other fanfiction.)


In between times of pen palling and watching all the shows? I have a little interest in an actual book:

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I’m not very far but I don’t mind. What Nicholas Carr has managed to tap into is precisely what I’ve been ranting and raving about all of this time. Being able to pay attention to the information in this book is difficult at times, but I can feel myself being drawn back into better focus and know that the answers to this madness are slowly being presented to me in a human pace. That pace itself is extremely helpful, as well as the answers. (I’ve ordered his sequel, “The Glass Cage” which may show solutions, I’m pleased to say.)


Meanwhile, with copies of The Addams Family, The Ghost & Mrs. Muir, The Munsters, Bewitched and all else well in hand? My husband asked me what I would like for my rental queue. I answered, “You know… It’s going to take forever anyway. What do they have for Tom Baker’s Doctor Who?”

You can bet he was excited by that! It’s a long way to defeating The Leviathans in Dark Shadows but while all of this gets worked on? We have another show to enjoy and research together.

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His beginning flashed before our eyes. Our beloved Doctor tried out a lot of outfits; a comedic effect to him always altering his look when he regenerates.

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Then he came out of the TARDIS with the classic Fourth Doctor attire we knew and adored.

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I screamed, “WOOOOOO HOOOO!!!”

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With that being said, I must ask my audience,

“What have you devoted your life to lately?”

How Soon Is Now?

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Paper letters from people who enjoy the radio drama as well as The Ghost and Mrs. Muir. Learning about what responses happen offline instead of online. What is given via pen pals and why it’s better than the “high-speed” internet world which has become much slower than the postal system.

Discussions of love and hate for Barnabas Collins and who the guy actually resembles. Interesting background on the creator to “The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows” and why she doesn’t believe cliche’ advice. Plugs for other writers and how working together could create a better society simply in the practice of focusing on what we enjoy, rather than what we despise.

Fun music from The Ramones, K-Tel’s album “Vampire Songs”, Doctor Who (and where we’re shooting for his entrance) as well as Love Spit Love’s cover from “The Craft” of The Smiths song, for which this podcast is named.

Happy Listening 🙂

For Those of Us Who Are Still Alive…

I repeatedly get responses from a blogpost to my inbox that discourses on the pains of suicide and how that affects people.

Why is this? Why do people care enough to post about that horror when we have so much more in us for the interconnectedness of the greater good? Why are we dwelling on this? Why are we mourning these losses and talking so much about changing them when we don’t prove a tinkers dam to those who exist with us now?

We lost one of the most talented comedians in the last year.

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Then within the last week we lost this wonderful individual:

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Anyone notice that word? “Human”?

Human is an essence through the Evolution of our beings. Whether you believe in Creationism or not, Evolution is real. We change. We alter. We affect our universe from the time our ancestors became curious about the way things worked, how they came into existence, and how to change them for the betterment of our lives. (This is easily seen in the last 100-200 years.)

We live in a time of great luxury and chaos. We could be so much better. But we choose to be robots online.

I am sick of that.


I learned about internet access and I didn’t like it. I didn’t like how de-humanized we were becoming. Email was impersonal. Now? It’s more personal than I ever expected it could be. But online interaction, ever since I began The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows, has gotten worse and worse and worse. If I had started my series in 2005 I believe better things would have come. People had keyboards. They didn’t take everything I had to offer from device technology with rotten keyboards. They weren’t noncommunicable to humour, they didn’t download “the world” at the press of a button, they didn’t share memes and files all the live-long day. Some people believed the internet was ONLY created for porn, but others shared our lives together in chat rooms with bad dial-up connections and we were alive anyway…

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We were fighting evil by moonlight…

We enjoyed each others company, we had battles with each other, we won each others hearts, but then ICQ came and instant messaging happened. More and more of the television zombie mentality took over our souls as time went on in ways I never saw because I became alienated from the online world in all my own personal horrors.

And then I found…

Collinsport

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A spooky place I’d never seen before as I was going through the deepest Hell of my own life. I was numb, but I pressed on. I saw potential for it, problems they had, many of which I had been through. Other spooky characters of the same time period and those that could shift and make those changes. The massive onslaught and variety of abuse I suffered sat before me and the straw that broke my camel’s back was the destruction of Sam Evans. I couldn’t take it anymore.

I had anhedonia, I had escaped my tormentors, I have been willing to call the police if my Jason McGuire dad ever dare try to enter my life again. I learned how to get a restraining order against family members if the necessity arrives.

But here is a town that is living what I lived through, all within myself. The spooky, the conflict, the destruction and all the while the homes are beautiful, the personalities in each life provide the cohesion toward change for the better. The ghosts walk, the people drink, the waves crash, the world spins. The history is rich, this place could turn around.

Wait… this is a soap-opera. This is not going to bring any lift any time soon or ever…

Unless…

Someone came up with an alteration…

Ooops, that’s not what people are posting. In so many decades no one is changing these things.

Until now…

Sadly… it’s likely too late. We post memes of our dearest desires, our vilest hurts, are fondest beliefs.

But do we live them?

I have my doubts.

I went into this to find kindred spirits, communication, a way to live, and discovered how much talent I truly had and how much farther I could go with a good audience.

I’ve made thousands of people laugh, I’ve let the hair down at Collinwood with scores of bonus characters, I’ve reached out in every way I can, I’ve spent my life savings, I’ve driven my husband mad as well as loved him with new inspiration. I’ve contacted every college radio station I could find, reached iTunes, every fandom, every avenue, the spooky, the Gothic, the science-fiction crowd, spewed my angst back on any haters that came in my way. I knew I deserved better, I knew they deserved better. I managed to get so much only to find my people were breaking down by the time I found them.

I lived long, I fought hard, I prospered, but for human innovation and communication?

I failed. 😦

I never wanted praise. I know I have talent. I am blatantly aware of it. All I had to do was listen to my demos on walks to work to know that to be true. I wanted to fuel it with a talkative audience. I wanted discussion. Then all I found were silent numbers. And… I cracked.

Maybe it is too late. Maybe my talent is not worth the resurgence of true discourse. The online world is all about like-clicks now. We aren’t talking to each other anymore. We are programmed and by that we are being destroyed.

Daleks never scared me, The Master barely irked me, but what did bother me in the world of Doctor Who?

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The Cybermen

The Cybermen tend towards covert activity, scheming from hiding and using human pawns or robots to act in their place until they need to appear. They also seek to increase their numbers by converting others into Cybermen (a process known as “cyber-conversion” or “robotisation” in the older episodes and “upgrading” in the newer episodes), an often painful process as body parts are removed and replaced with cybernetic replacements.

As far as I am concerned most of us have become this kind of deranged mentality. We don’t care who controls us as long as we believe we are in control somehow. However, if we aren’t truly communicating we are not in control. And as many Cybermen have complained when being faced with their own personalities again, “I’m so cold.”

And…

So am I.

Maybe it’s just too late.

Maybe this project is simply another time-waster swarmed into the cesspool the internet has become. Maybe I should do more than I did in 2013 by chunking my text and spending a rollercoaster year of sorting through the madness and finding the better people who might be believers.

Maybe I should destroy everything: the text, the audio, the updates, the marriage novel, the facebook account, the tumblr account, the wordpress account, the google account, the youtube videos, the podomatic links, the iTunes connection.

Maybe, just maybe, I should simply give up.

With the lack of communication it seems to be what everyone wants.

Because obviously…

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You’re just a dead Cyberman… aren’t you?


Prove you’re a dead Cyberman: Give me a like-click. Go ahead.

Ep. 14: Amplify, alter pitch, clip silence, breath and clicks… repeat…

A look of longing

It is often with deep sadness I muse over how celebratory we could be in this love but choose to reflect on where our own opinions rest in Dark Shadows. The bizarre snippets of ideas and what I’ve heard about in the fanwork brings me to wonder how adept its fans are in understanding the characters or understanding themselves. As one philosopher told me through long ago echoes from a stage I never saw, “I believe that if we are honest with ourselves, the most fascinating problem in the world is ‘Who Am I?’ What do you mean, what do you feel… when you say the word ‘I’? ‘I, myself’? I don’t think there can be any more fascinating preoccupation than that… because it’s so mysterious. It’s so elusive.”

Myself: A Case Of Mistaken Identity

As I spent time in cases of identity I not only explored myself but explored other people. When folks address a factor of not handing out all my personal details nor a “real name”… well. I’ve worn a plethora of names and identities since I was extremely young, just searching out what identity was, what could be done with it, and as such it makes sense as a creator of not only fanfiction but regular fiction from an early time. As I explored that, I found it easier to understand who other people were. Also, the name Daryl Wor was one of the very first ones I chose for myself with the help of The Muse. But what was the first one? “Shadow”. 😉

So now when I hear myself addressed as “Daryl” many of you have no idea how you’ve addressed me in who I truly am from a young age. I had writers block, anhedonia and frigidity for 8 years. Suddenly in this project I came back to who I was. People say Daryl and suddenly I am me again, I’m myself again. Beyond which I’ve changed my name various times so when you call me “Daryl”? There is no greater truth to me than that. Particularly because my voice and identity is so very androgynous. What better name to use than an androgynous one?


As for the work. Episode 13 is out now and I’m still hearing bits and fragments of invalidation that it’s audio, expensive, time consuming, acting, etc. I suppose the reason this is is partially due to having the side project of “Margaret Josette Dupres” which is only text. However, the audio is so much harder and so far I’ve been greatly left out in the cold from those who enjoy it. I have no stage, I have no frame of reference to my audiences responses. There is little fuel to continue, but continue I must. (And I also have haters and trolls which maximize this stress.)

On top of which the radio drama incorporates so many characters, all of whom I have to perform. For the last few days I’ve gone over repeated performances of lines from Wadsworth, Willie, Roger, Liz, Barnabas, Sam, Dr. Hoffman and Professor Stokes. It’s such an intense struggle to do this because there are parts I need to amplify for sound quality as well as deepen pitches for male voices, or picking out two or three performed lines, find the inflections between those and splicing them together. As like most entertainment, the story moves and the understanding of how difficult it was to put together likely doesn’t find you unless you’ve done such work yourself.

And as many of us know in Dark Shadows fanwork, text is mostly what it is. For some reason ones ears are interpreting this as the same thing because that is what one is used to. How I can alter anyone’s understanding of the difference? I don’t know.

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What I do know is as I have worked repeatedly with Willie’s performances. What he and Barnabas face together in my next episode brings me to tears again and again as I go over the audio work. It’s that profound to me. The man is falling to pieces and so am I. He doesn’t understand how everything changed. As we remember from Dark Shadows and his return from Wyndcliff? He wasn’t unaware of what had happened. He was covering up what he knew to hopefully return in all innocence and wield a shotgun at Joe Haskell getting in his way of Maggie Evans, as well as the crap with Adam that I skipped in my series.

So what kind of Willie Loomis do we have now? One that is forced to recognized not only his past in Collinsport but his past from somewhere else:

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Mr. Loomis is so shocked to see someone from even longer ago, 1954 to be exact, he ain’t gonna play naive! (I’m discerning he was about 14 years old when Wadsworth hired him but I’m leaving it open-ended until more research and discussion can be obtained.) Dear God! It’s that guy who hired me to chop wood for the fireplaces, hide outside and keep my mouth shut about everything? I have no way of covering up what I know at this point. I am in far too much disbelief! And now he’s telling me everything at Collinwood isn’t how I remembered it anymore? This butler? I can never fathom how he knows as much as he does about people, but all I do know is: he damn well does. I better watch out, is all.

So the complexity of this project continues regardless of how “sleeper” it’s function might be. Remember, if you will, how the film Clue itself was so entertaining it likely went over the heads of most in North America. Such seems to be the case with The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows. How I can speed up the process of discussion about the jokes with people? I don’t know. I keep trying out the people who enjoy that movie and now the people who enjoy Elvira, Mistress of The Dark. Somewhere in this crazy train of spooky love have got to be some people who remember how to speak out and say what the hell they’re laughing at or enjoying.

As for what I’ve seen in the Dark Shadows crowd? It’s mostly the spiteful who reign vocally supreme. But many creators of all of these shows, fanwork in some cases, and otherwise, keep hoping for the best.

Still, if you keep hoping for the best from someone else? Well, it’s like the philosopher asks as stated earlier in this article,

“Who am I?”


All I have to ask is, “Why not you?”

Peace, clarity, and reflection,

Daryl

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