Anti-Social Networks, Groucho’s Birthday, Barnabas and Josette

Excerpt of a letter from myself to another writer:

Yes, it’s true! I get pretty fractious on “social networks”. People keep inviting me to groups and then when you think you have support all it ends up being about is photo-photo-photo and I’m like, “This is so infantile. I don’t know what happened to everyone’s cognitive faculties but I’m not encouraging it. I just refuse to cater to such a waste of time.” It’s horrifying to see people fully capable of downloading a great show and when they realize how great it is all they can do is run around all over the internet and like-click everything I’ve posted. That kind of behaviour is just not social. Plus, I mean, I think you might remember this, wasn’t it when you go to someone’s house and then the photo albums come out that was the point at which the guests fall asleep?

“Here’s our vacation in Pittsburg!”

“S-N-O-R-E”

That’s my memory.

It’s as if all they care about is book covers and never open a book. And they believe they’re being kind by getting others involved in just being idle. I’ve been pleased to get emails from you all saying, “Okay, that was nice, but back to work!”

On top of that a ton of these people are running around in the open air with their devices and phones just flittering an empty moment in time to post it on Facebook with no concern that some of us are stuck at home via computers looking at all this excess.

Bleh!

 

I’ve thankfully been getting more email and I’m happy with that. The pen pal thing seems in a lull right now. I’m pretty sure what happened is some of the letter writers got greedy or lazy, went online to soak up the show and left me to rot without the correspondence. If this is so? Hopefully there will be some embarrassment when they realize I read aloud what I was getting from their better discourse and they will want to go back to being pen pals again.

Was glad to see celebration for Groucho’s 125th birthday!

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I sure feel like that guy sometimes. He really got mad at audiences that just would stagnate in their seats or do other weird things. I remember in one of my drunken ff dot net rants I posted that Groucho Marx would have dropped cigar ashes on the audience and mooned them by now. Plus people who do like my show blame all the other silent people even though they’re silent too! It’s weird! I guess it’s easier for everyone to deflect to some “unknown” people even though you know they’re spending time asking each other what to do rather than just looking through the Q & A’s and getting it over with. It’s a lot more fun to listen to the show and answer the flippin’ questions than sit around on DS pages bickering with fans who don’t agree with them.

Here is another thing that irks me. I keep getting these sheltered, naive people who have all these problems with reincarnation, or whatever. Why the heck did they ever watch Dark Shadows to begin with??? It’s like, “Dude. Go read some Pride & Prejudice or something! Or Little House on The Prairie!”

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One chik got all weird on “Margaret Josette Dupres”. I asked her why she was even interested if it conflicts with her faith. “I like Barnabas and Josette.” Fair enough. That ended amicably with me basically saying, “Okay, I don’t think we can help each other. All the best.”

And even still what Barnabas and Josette stuff that finally has come out is supernatural. He’s a vampire, or they’re both vampires, or like in “Thicker Than Water” they deal with his curse and work around it. Or “Role Reversals” which is Josette as the vampire and Barnabas is David’s tutor. We finally get those stories and they all have something supernatural going on.

However, I must admit it’s nice they finally are out there. It was dry as a bone when I did my five year combing of all the “blah” stuff. (And honestly most of the Julia/Barnabas went right over my head. I combed looking for relief so anything I found that might have had Julia/Barnabas as a couple went past my purview because I was looking for Sam Evans alive with Maggie as Josette and I never found anything.)

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YAY! “Night At The Opera”. Wow. I remember being in my teens and finally watching that one. It was like when I was seeing “Clue” for the first time. I kept flipping back to stuff that was making me practically wet myself.

Harpo running up the damn tapestry was to die for.

And then when the lights go out on stage and that wonderfully operatic voice breaks into a gag!!! I don’t know why those bits.

Or Groucho saying, “Do you sleep on your stomach with such big buttons on your pajamas?” LOL!

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Or “Hey, you big bully. What’s the idea of picking on that little bully?” It’s such a damn curve-ball!

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Did I tell you I taught an English class and I worked in themes and one of themes was “Marxism”? That was good. There is a great play by John Kessel in a collection of his and it’s called “Faust Feathers”. It’s in his book “The Pure Product”. If you can find that at a library it’s wonderful. I used that in my class and everyone had a part just reading out loud.

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Glad to hear you’re looking forward to more of The Pit. You know, becoming Beetlejuice is scary for me to do! I’m glad I’m done with most of the acting for right now. What’s nice is you think his voice is deep but it really isn’t. So far the dialogue between him and Barnabas is near perfect. They can interact and it’s amazing. I’m just stunned it sounds so well.

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And THANK YOU for wanting more Tony & Carolyn. I love all my couples and sometimes I’m happy as hell to have Josette and Barnabas all cozy at home and that helps me sleep at night, but darn it, I want more Tony & Carolyn and I want to put in “Groovy Kinda Love” for them. And I REALLY want that proposal scene in the radio drama somewhere! Ooo! I just got chills! Thanks for guiding me to that lovely thought. And I do need to think of getting Episode 16 done so I can share some scenes from 15. Angelique whipping Blair’s butt at gin-rummy and other stuff had my husband and I falling down and losing bladder control back in 2013. It was the biggest hurt in the best way.

Okay, I hope that assuaged any worry about me from my pissed off Facebook posts. I’m good when there is more human interaction and stuff!

keep it spooky,

Daryl

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Episode 16: Building a New Episode…

The download numbers continue to rise to the point it makes me almost batty with so much silence in response… Then among various people on social networks there is this idea that I have become many fans baby-sitter. Why? Basic online fandom bickering. If someone was blazoning my name in terms of being some amazing DS creator or something in response to someone else? That would be grounds for me to start baby-sitting fans. They’re not, though. They’re just making trouble for each other that has nothing to do with me or my work. My work is too scary to discuss minus maybe 4 people these days. Meh…

Personal counsel I like though, as well as need. In fact, I can’t figure out how all y’all reading these blogs and listening to the podcast aren’t starving for talk. I’d be starving for it, and have been… Things on a one-to-one basis, discussion about the characters involved here. Got some great help yesterday from a Munsters fan about Lily, Grandpa and if they can see themselves in mirrors…

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That would be a yes, folks! Thank ye, sir!

So Lily’s mention of a mirror has had to be altered but only slightly. The witticism in conversation still remains.

Now for the basics… this is pretty much a note to myself sometimes. I am trying so hard to keep it down to 6,000 words for the audio timing but it’s really tough.

The scenes are:

1) Milligan & Hecubus’ intro and opener.


2) Dr. Hoffman, Professor Stokes and… Dr. “Hawkeye Pierce”. (Which bleeds into a scene involving Tom Jennings and Caleb Collins.)


3) Vampire Angelique finally reaches The Old House to confront Barnabas and… “Crap, there are a lot of people here! This isn’t working out so well. Who is this new butler, again? What’s up with the blond guy? Uh-oh… there’s that little girl I messed with via voodoo when she was alive… Not good… “


4) Next we have Maggie and Sam wandering in to discuss what they overheard with Barnabas and Angelique. This will need more work, too. A wonderful new help-mate reminded me of scenes with Kitty Soames in 1897. As Josette’s reincarnation she did visit Jeremiah’s grave for a heart-to-heart and explanation of having been tricked into marriage with him. Which means I have to go through those again and ask Maggie what she knows as a reincarnation of both at this point. That’s the homework involved in this production.


*5) Lily & Elizabeth pack for England… very sweet, but I’d like to find a way to get them out the door before this scene ends. Or maybe something that would keep them out of the house by Episode 17. (Happy for a suggestion here. Passports are done. Customs? Luggage tags? Tickets? We’re in 1968 as far as I can figure out at this point.)


6) Maggie Evans goes to speak to the ghost of Caleb Collins in his house. She feels he’s likely the person to come up with a solution for the most recent problem. Caleb knows Maggie well, in fact he knows a lot about what’s been going on with her and confesses to his responsibility of a few things himself, past and present.


7) Back in Dr. Hoffman’s office a certain Professor Stokes has his own confessions to make, if a little impatiently. 😉


8) Barnabas is sitting near the fire contemplating the current woes with Vampire Angelique. All seems lost, until a small and grizzled voice begins speaking to him from parts unknown.


And here is my trouble. One more scene, a cliffhanger scene should fit in there to finalize Episode 16. I can type it up but that would be coming in sharply back to 7,000 words at this point. *sigh* Maybe I can’t escape that.

Again, the listening comes in. When I go over the drafts I see words characters wouldn’t say and have to alter that, whether it’s form of expression or mention of something. Then one last step before total alteration:

The demo…

I have not done a demo for The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows with my husband since Autumn of 2013. But I realize now it’s a key component in building episodes. The listening of the read shows anything good or anything that needs to be changed. Does it sound like everyone? Was there something in the text I didn’t notice because I was reading silently rather than listening? That’s where the tandem of text and audio brings a truer form. Many people listen to audio books now because their mind will wander when reading text. (For others it’s the opposite, hence I make both available.)

Still, I have no idea when this work will be publicly available. People seem to want it but they’re tongue tied about it. Looks like many are mentally capable enough to download an episode, hook it up to an mp3 player, listen and then? I don’t know… I’ve rarely ever known what happens. I don’t get told. I get like-clicked, I get random “friend requests” on Facebook (I feel that site has wounded the word friend.) I get hundreds of numbers a week even though I haven’t released a radio drama episode in six months… and?

I am told I should be happy.

How?

Why?

I’m entertaining gobs of people and I’m hearing virtually nothing about that.

I’m getting hated and harassed.

I’ve managed to garner neglect from people who enjoy my work.

I receive memes and share files as well as notifications in like-clicks that have no commentary to report.

Invitations for group pages flood me with distractions galore and makes simply using networks to really talk to people a nuisance. I’m trying to create something substantial here and even the people who love it make it even harder to create, however easy I’ve made that communication and let myself be available. Why is all of this supposed to make me a happy person? Why?


Why do people become suicidal?

Because very often they feel battered, unloved, and uncared for.

Because, theoretically, it’s only after one is dead that their ghost will finally hear how people felt.

Telling people what you like about them, what you enjoy about their company, the details of good things? That is, for some cursed reason, only something people do after someone dies. Look at what comes from celebrity deaths: That’s when the words spring out. For some reason death becomes the purpose in which the living finally speak.

With that knowledge? Who wouldn’t want to die?

Just to find out, after ages of wondering, what you truly meant to someone…

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Episode 15, Splicing in Character Hosts and Sound Effects

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Look a little awkward? It is.

For the last couple of days I’ve had my nerves rattled from it basically being known I am no longer allowed to vent my frustrations about this on my own timeline. Apparently this sparks in others the need to come up with some philosophical advice that covers up their own guilt, or their laziness, or lack of attentiveness. I’ve seen it many times before and I’m not buying it. Okay, let’s say I posted that on a group page. I can see the conversation going down that road. However, this was on my wall, my personal news, and so what was the result of this attempt to make me feel better that really was a method of making everyone else feel better? It’s succeeded in pissing me off for over two days now. As a result, the work has gone much slower. (Thanks.)

I was explaining to my husband a plant has more wisdom. If a plant requires more sunlight? It bends toward it. When it senses water in one direction? It reaches it’s roots there. When I’m looking for my nutrients to reach this suffocating Muse? Humans don’t produce that. They produce cross-references. A good gardener knows that if you don’t maintain the nourishment? It’s your own damn fault if the garden dies. But now that we’re flippin’ around so many distractions, we’d rather argue about where that sunlight and water is. Doing that? Not one measly tomato is going to grow for you. I can tell ya that easily.


I remember I did a podcast intro where I said doing this series, The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows, had been in a cheaper by the dozen method where I did one part over and over, and then the next, and then the next. Today and yesterday I’m noticing it’s better if I go through each scene and add the bits. I’m adding in Milligan & Hecubus’ new performances, but as I’m finding where to put them, I’m raising the pitch on Angelique’s voice and I’m adding in sound effects just so they’re there and I don’t have to hunt for them later. Some will need augmentation or overlapping with lines, and other lines need to be raised in volume, but so far it’s easier to go through Episode 15 this way.

Hmm, then again, now I’m going passed the Victoria, Morticia and Grandmama lines, although I did supply the bubbling cauldron sound effects. I’m fairly happy with what I’ve got for Morticia and Grandmama. I’m not sure if it’s because I’ve been viewing the first episodes of The Addams Family again, but it feels like Carolyn Jones wasn’t as deep as I thought, so what I have is likely just as well until I can study for new radio episodes in the future. We need that family.

Then there is a scene of Maggie and Barnabas looking out the window, the Willie & Sarah scene and then Hecubus says:

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“And back in Josette’s aquamarine room of many ornate fixtures.”

I think I like the old performance of this more. It’s so cheerful!

Aw, crap… [laughing] This line for Sir Simon Milligan still gets me. Heaven knows *I* have endured the stink-eye from letting Barnabas and Maggie unite in this… I think it’s just the way Milligan manages to announce it when there is a gathering of the clan at the main house of Collinwood:

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“One would expect a number of stink-eyes and suspiciously raised brows at the affection our love-bats are obviously NOT hiding from each other or anyone else.”

All right, now I’m just focusing on our two radio-show hosts. There is too much in between I can see that needs to be altered. Maggie’s lines likely have to be re-performed. Ohhh, her chortling voice! How to reproduce that… Well, I can watch or listen to some Josette Dupres as well and see if I can shoot for a cross-blend now since that’s what’s going on. I’ve wondered how KLS might have performed that given the chance. I guess Bella Heathcote was the only one who got an opportunity to experience that blend. Remember, she does say at the beginning of the film:

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My work began years before this… Imagine my shock in the theater!

It reminds me that people treat me like a single person when I’m doing the work of an entire production crew. Not cute, people. Not cute. And the very opposite of helpful, too. As Warren told me, “It’s not like you didn’t explain what you needed. YOU DID!” He’s correct. I did, and I do, repeatedly. :/

Another dear friend on the grassroots list told me, “That entire discussion you sent me made me completely indignant. These are people you sent CDs to? And you also spend a great deal of your time empathizing with their everyday woes and concerns. You don’t deserve that.” Aye, that’s just it. They’re feeling bad about not keeping up and want to blanket it with something.

Guilt exists for a purpose; it’s to make us change our ways. Sadly some people just wallow in it, try to deflect it with various excuses, but those of better judgement? They either change or they stop feeling guilty. Which is what my husband expressed in one of our workshops. That advice has certainly saved me from a world of misery. It’s likely why I have been better at focusing on creative pursuits. But we’re human, we need others to talk to. Not a great deal of that going around between the internet clutter, I must say.

Now I’m seeing some lines I did twice that are doubled up on the old file as well. Most of the demo was performed in December of 2013, possibly November. I remember I lost my voice for a while at the end of that year. Having re-performed the lines this last week it’s good to use those rather than guess which of the previous performances were better. So the scenes are switching and the hosts lines are being spliced in. There is another scene between Willie & Wadsworth here, then there is one with Barnabas Collins finally meeting with the ghost of Caleb Collins at the seaview property. Time period jokes abound here…

Oh, yes, and now that there is another vampire in town, the dogs are howling again, which is going to freak poor Willie Loomis out. Went through all the howling I had to discern what to place in there to format later. Sad to consider all of this hard work will only be enjoyed by a precious few, but then I think I’ve done enough. I’ve served my time only to get numbers, silence, control freaks and haters who speak up more than the people who enjoy it. I was detailing that with a church group, “We seem to be stuck to only detail what we dislike and we go on about that at length. Not so much what we enjoy unless we’re not thinking about it, really. I’d like that to change.”

As for this scene with Caleb and Barnabas, it’s nice to hear a bit of it again. I think after I finish this audio draft I’ll put it on my player. Maybe that will help motivate me more. As Caleb and Barnabas discuss Maggie…


CALEB: She would be the one to help change this place. You’d be sated at last, and she cares about people far more, with a genuine affection. Like Tom, she’s not just a pretty face either. It’s sad how beauty attracts on the outside so much, when there is so much more to it. Pesky, that is.

BARNABAS: But lovely if that combination can be found and admired all at once. ❤


And now to splice in the final Hecubus line, a sadness creeping in. I possibly need to do that over, but I’d say it’s time to save the file, switch it for listening, 57 minutes and all the extras… Not nearly done, but getting there. Could have done more a lot sooner if I had the fun commentary, but ah well. Just have to plug away and await an online change in people… that likely will never occur.

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Peace.

Words to a fellow DS creator… the extent of creativity…

Revealed is a wonderful expression of all that we’ve been going through in this odd world… a missive to another hard working entertainer:


I’m intrigued….My being in the realm of humour… well… the stand-ups get on stage for the reaction. Gettin’ numbers and like-clicks is the equivalent of having a grandparent pat you on the head for a crayon drawing or the equivalent of… ONE CLAP!

Especially droppin’ off links to major works in audio, one of which took over a month! “Oooo, a like-click. I feel SO ACCOMPLISHED!

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All that crying and screaming I performed really touched ya, eh?”

With Archive of Our Own, yeah. It could be better but the people running it certainly don’t care much to take advice from the users even if they have, I dunno, donated money to the bloody site? 😛 I notice that another beloved writer looks like she gave up on it.

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Hint, hint…

Most of my comments for The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows at A03 was my husband at work trying to get the conversation going since people forgot how to fricken type responses ten years ago when they went from computers to device tech. *raspberry*

And what’s irritating is with Archive of Our Own you can copy and paste favourite lines to your comments, whereas on fanfiction dot net you can’t. Someone commenting would have to type out bits. Then one dame I asked for help had the gall to review my writing style techniques. It’s like, “Lady, I asked you to tell me what’s FUNNY! You know? Like, Ha ha! This made me laugh?”

Whoops! For whatever reason we like our entertainment vested in human resources while showing we have almost no humanity left in us.

As if so happens, I weird others out by just wanting my people and the discussion while I get downloads for the radio drama episodes and podcasts every single day. And I only have 13 episodes with extras. On top of that I had that damn book editor, Madam Angelique troll, having 7 months of a cow because she couldn’t control my work or me, nor make money off of it, then that film-director trying to order me around.

What kind of a film-director, who is outdoors for his own work, is so agoraphobic to insist I not make tactile advertising??? Just stay online only? Meanwhile people are laughing their asses off at my work and telling me, “You have to do it for you.” or “Sounds like you’re having fun!” Yeah, um, you’re welcome?

money money moneybrit cash

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Three years and four thousand dollars later… ?

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Take your negativity and shove it!

Not to mention the Julia/Barnabas absolutists are RIDICULOUS. I was looking for people who wanted the pairing I uncorked for Barnabas because, from what I could see,

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Maggie is…

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and, ugh, Kitty too, *rolls eyes*

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She and Barnabas wanted each other like crazy. If someone doesn’t like or approve of that? The rest of the people I found who do like it couldn’t care less if others don’t.

But the Julia fanatics? THEY are the ones shoving that idea down everyone else’s throat. I can not tell you how many people have approached me and confessed that they have been harassed by Julia fans, to this day, trying to convert them or win them over. Seriously, what does that say about these women?

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(A visual aid in answer to that last question.)

To me; it’s just so weird. Quite a few people want “Margaret Josette Dupres”. They’d been waiting decades for it… but… it’s… erotica. They praise it but don’t always give much in the way of book-club insight. Whereas the radio drama goes EVERYWHERE with all of those fandoms and I’ve had to yank out the discussion from people about it. Still, for the most part, fans of the pairing are continuously discussing the angst they’ve been under for how they’ve been mistreated, when to me (AND a number of Addams Family lovers) the pairing was just plain obvious. That’s why I lash out in inebriation and isolation. I’m like,

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“Oh… stealing my laughs from me by scaring all these people?”

“I got some Groucho Marx for ya, right here!” lol


Julia sympathizers are chill, usually. They like the Prof. Stokes idea. I was asking one of them which line I should edit for episode 14 (still in production) because I noticed one of the things I did in his lines sounded sexy, and another version was more a statement, “You seem rather fulfilled, Julia.” Of course one Julia sympathizer said, “Yes! Use the sexy one for Stokes!” And so far it’s been the people who are in theater who have a better understanding of all of this. Whereas many DS fans write fanfiction, LOVE Julia, and invalidate everything else. Hmm… here is this iTunes link for my work.

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Do y’all know what audio is??? Whoops! That would be admitting it isn’t text. They already invalidate who Barnabas reciprocates, might as well call audio work simply text to top all that off. In my intro to Episode 13 I finally asked everyone,

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“Why do you all want this Barnabas guy if you think he’s a piece of garbage?” lol


Whereas Victoria, Maggie and Josette fans do love Barnabas a lot; flaws and all. It would be nice to stretch my audio work and reach more Hoffman/Stokes, Willie/Nurse Jackson, or even more Tony/Carolyn, but boy! This Barnabas issue seriously stalls my radio drama! What a mess!

And I’m sure I’ve made LOTS of Julia or Angelique fans grind their teeth when they find out this whole thing healed 8 years of frigidity and my marriage.

No, I actually do NOT beat off to this work. 🙂  In all my woes, I have a happy marriage with a partner. Betch’ya NONE of those people wrote stories that helped them like that. (But… one never knows…) And…? I never INTENDED to do the damn thing! lol

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That’s what tapping into Barnabas/Josette can do.

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No wonder the Gomez/Morticia types get-it.


I know about one needing a thesaurus. When I channel Barnabas? Damn, that old man is PICKY! Pushes me to get every fricken word as he would say it. But repetitive word usage reminds one of The Book of Mormon.

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They could make, “And it came to pass” into a drinking game.


I’m glad to hear of others working in other fandoms. I notice people who do DS work but also work in other fandoms are better grounded to the characters. Really ticks off the old DS rules. “You’re just supposed to tack on the names of the characters and do whatever you want.”

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P’shh! Try doing that in Star Trek

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or Twin Peaks…


Ya ain’t gonna get very far! And other writers know what I mean. They have to deal with, “Huh? You’re not supposed to use historical accuracy, get the characters right, or do any happy endings in Dark Shadows.”

Oh, yeah? Watch us! 🙂


Oh, good LORD! If you’ve heard GOOD things about my audio work, PLEASE let me know what you can! People barely tell me jack-shit! It’s like I need a fricken agent or something! lol (And I do have plans for about 170 eps, maybe. I just want the feedback for fuel to get it all done and over with.) I must have about 500-1,000 listeners
by now.


lookin’ for the lonely,

Daryl

Blemishes of Discouragement… BUT… Plans for The Future (And How One Can Help)

Well, I’ve been through the ringer and back and here I am. It’s gotten to the point where I’m so close to restoring the magic but what will it take to get there? Discussion. I posted how empty and lifeless I was feeling, hoping that February would kick start after the Hell of January was over. Looks like the Hell still isn’t over. Almost everywhere I look people are still distracted or they’re falling to pieces.

That makes me wonder what sense of suffering my listeners endure and due to that suffering they understand the major pairing so much more. Still, it doesn’t change the fact that they’re suffering and therefore let me know, “Um… I haven’t listened to the episodes yet.” Great, so who did enjoy all that dramatic crap I had to go through for Episode 12, anyway? I know 13 reached some people who said a bit and knew it was coming, oddly the scream match from the first scene in 13 was a high prize indeed. So… did the points of it come across or was it just the dramatic essence of it? Actually, I’m slightly aware that one portion carried through. Ah… bookclub discussion. What a concept. Anyone know any bookclubs out there? Maybe they could pick up on this.

Finally had a good weep last night and likely long overdue. Beats all the rages I’ve gone into for the last year getting harassed and dealing with the DS clutter, heck, a lot of the clutter from all the fandoms. An online entertainer looking for the chat to refuel the energy and then being told not to ask for it, or just having my questions ignored. It’s humour and tons more. Then tweaked out haters posting crap about me where I can’t see it anyway. So address me just randomly where I can’t see it when my email address is… I dunno… EVERYWHERE? Talk about twisted. Free advertising, yo! I was wondering why my downloads got so high all of a sudden when I wasn’t posting anywhere. DOY! How many people got that free advertising, took a listen and thought, “What the hell are they complaining about? This is entertaining and sounds like hard work, too!”

Then people invalidating what I’m doing and my research and then wondering why I blocked them. Double-duh. “Huh? Where’d she go?” Away from your sorry sight. And I’ve seen it all before, too! In school. And then, “Oh, just ignore the negative.” Um, with no positive towards the work? Not bloody likely. Any one around here remember people saying ignore the bullies at school, and then… the same people send you back to said school to endure them? WTF?

Actually one guy who mentioned how the 1840 episode of Barnabas really loving Angelique made him worry his head would explode? I mentioned to him coming in to so many freaky fans was like a psychologist’s dream… or nightmare… I’m not sure which. He seemed to dig on that. I remember him saying a while back, “This is pretty heavy, but you should see some Tom Waits fans.” LOL! I know a few, never saw behavior like this… okay, maybe a little. (Actually there is a Tom Waits song I’d like to use for a podcast.)


I think one of the troubles is the catch-up from 19 months of material and then creating the audio, then the technical aspects and not getting the help, except from Written In Blood, Hallelujah! Making it easily accessible was not easy. But audio is more attractive to a lot of people than text. Plus, as the previous post mentioned, this reaches vaster realms and a DS series with so many fun extras? It’s gonna be the youthful, gregarious girl Mr. Big Cake gets. Those shows wouldn’t go down the usual lines of DS work. So we’re hitting up those types anyway, the Dark Shadows lovers, which was what I wanted, not the Dark Shadows junkies. The people who love the characters rather than all of the bickering. And they love the spooky, and the humour Dark Shadows does naturally have. It’s there. As in an earlier episode where Victoria and Carolyn wonder where one could go on a date. They laugh, “Well, you could go to The Blue Whale and get mixed up in a fist brawl.” LOL (I’d watched soap operas before. I never saw humour like this in any of them.)

Another trouble is… *sigh*

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Mr. Loomis

He’s a tough one, but I have missed him. Writing him in text isn’t nearly as fascinating, scary, difficult, nor as rewarding as the tandem we shared over a year ago as I learned to have and to hold with both channeling, writing, and acting his performance. It is truly another world when this man takes over your being. I don’t think I ever would have fallen in love with him if it wasn’t for tapping in to his character so damn closely. But it’s hard to adopt this baby and then send him forth with no caring words as to how people feel in what comes out. (Two scenes are out now and so little has been voiced for him already.)


Strangely there is one point of motivation, and it’s not Episode 14, it’s Episode 15. It needs work in the writing, but not much and I feel like that is the final step in getting the magic to return to this series, finally. Episode 15 engages more character changes, with Willie looking back at how Professor Stokes treated him in his calligraphy work and what effect that had on him, as he relates it to Wadsworth. Episode 15 has Angelique returning as a vampire, and even beginning to question herself after some humourous foibles. Things aren’t working out as they once did. Why aren’t they? And now that I’m thinking about it, who am I, anyway? And what have I been doing all this time?

Also this is at the point I’m going to try and narrow down the length of time via word count as best I can by Episode 16. (I do remember how I developed the lay-outs before in text, but I realize I’ll be a little rusty before the inspiration returns.) If 14 is done 15 can get into full swing, as well as the whole series again. 🙂

Episode 15 has announcements and plans, people meeting who haven’t met before, things starting to change both for the better and for the worse. And after that? With enough support? Well, look at what I’ve already done. You think I’m not capable of that magic again? Remember, when Helena stepped in I went from writing one episode a month to writing four in October of 2013. And when I chunked the text in exasperation of neglect? (I was positive with the audio I’d get the support easily. No. Oops.) I created six podcasts by November of the same year with the radio drama episodes attached.  I told everyone how this works in my seventh intro. Does anyone want it to go faster? That’s the question.


So looking over the commentary for Episodes it looks like just enough for Ep. 5 has happened! Excellent to see the kind of slice I’m looking for:

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I looked over Episode 6 and it appears to have just squeaked out enough. It is Episode 7 that’s lacking one fairly chunky discourse, but of course, I must love this for Episode 7: “The Blair Warlock Projected”

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Comments such as, “What the Hell? Hahahahaha!” well… you have no idea how this alone has cheered me up. People who can’t say much can always throw in bits like that. They’re delicious appetizers. And are so repeatedly. This is why commentary is good. People like me re-find them and get tickled all over again. (I’m rather certain this was in response to the episode title. I told ya it was funny!)


Ah! Back to the point. So it’s Episode 7 that needs one more big hug. (Episode 8 seems also to have squeaked by with the needed five.) Episode 9 “The Wisdom of Mayhem requires one more on the details of it’s delight. Episode 10 “The Kids Are Alright” requires one more. Episode 11 is split in two parts, so part one requires just another good comment, while part two still requires two different ones. (Man, I guess the ghost of Caleb Collins truly is that scary.)

However the one that requires 3 sets of comments is Episode 12 “Dark Therapy” which is the darkest one so far but still has quite a bit of humour, especially in that huge list of inventions between 1795-1968. (That was a ton of homework for me btw.) I’m curious if anyone felt completely sunk by that last line and the ending song. Verne Langdon actually singing it is pretty heartfelt and depressing when I’d only known instrumentals of it for so long.

Also Episode 13 requires 3 sets of comments. That one was TRULY a pain to edit. Good night, Irene.

A-ha. The damage for lack of just enough commentary isn’t so bad as I thought. With 13 Episodes finished we just need 11 to:

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Simply put to solve the trouble, bookclub commentary, or even bullet lists of what was laughed at, are needed for:

Episode 7: The Blair Warlock Projected

 https://www.fanfiction.net/s/7833887/7/The-Pit-of-Ultimate-Dark-Shadows

Episode 9: The Wisdom of Mayhem

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/10085518/9/The-Pit-of-Ultimate-Dark-Shadows-Lily-Munster-Version

Episode 10: The Kids Are Alright

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/7833887/10/The-Pit-of-Ultimate-Dark-Shadows

PART ONE of Episode 11:

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/10085573/11/The-Pit-of-Ultimate-Dark-Shadows-Bewitched-Version

PART TWO: of Episode 11:

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/7833887/11/The-Pit-of-Ultimate-Dark-Shadows

Episode 12 “Dark Therapy”

http://xoiscythe.podomatic.com/entry/2014-08-07T20_26_59-07_00

Episode 13 “A Balancing of The Humours”

http://xoiscythe.podomatic.com/entry/2014-12-20T16_00_25-08_00

All links provided allow for anonymous commentary. And then what shall we get?

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Hellooooo, Handsome

Thanks for your support. 🙂

Things I’m Grateful For…

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Yes, this is a bored and waiting Dr. “Hawkeye” Pierce wondering when his damn turn is coming up. I channeled him a little too early for a while, and as a result I began smelling each bite of my food. It was a bit disturbing.

Funny portion I found when I made a tired post on facebook, I was looking through what photo to use to show that and then I found this:

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It cracked me and a few people up because I’d labeled it: “Dear Dad, Who the hell is Julia Hoffman?”


Man, I had no idea what I was getting into when I started all this via crappy equipment back in 2011. As for me it’s seems my whole life has been built to do all of this. I wanted a good education but mainly what I got was pop culture entertainment. Trying to get a good education resulted in learning how whacked-out humans can truly be. They say one thing and then go around doing the opposite. That’s why I like when someone puts up news of good deeds, even when it comes from non-human beings. Then all the comedy and humour I’ve imbibed, as well as the techniques for improving memory. Historical research from both curiousity and from trying to get my original material accurate. Money has always been a major problem, but when I got a little? I stopped buying cheap trinkets and got a ton of dictionaries, lexicons, thesaurus’, synonym/antonym books, and just studied on my own. Could barely afford college so I didn’t attend enough there.

Then someone suggested Vladimir Nabokov. Whoah! This man can WRITE! And English wasn’t his first language? Well this guy is speaking MY language! Wow! I was starting with Transparent Things, if memory serves, and he began a discourse on how when one focuses on a material object the history of that object links in. “Transparent things, through which the past shines!” Yes! Like James Burke’s series, “Connections”! Associative memory! Exactly.

And associative memory is how comedy works. How did Robin Williams accomplish such speed? One thing led to another, and then another and another. He kept going. And this is likely why improvisation was one of his favourite activities. The exploration of the human mind, where might this story go if I become a character or set of characters and let them take over? And as many of us know, it goes far!

Many a character had been taken into my psyche and in depth, as well as original characters I formulated, both to discover them and to discover my own identity. Then I come into Dark Shadows. Wow! These people gots problems! But why? What’s so bad about spooky? Oh! Okay, they aren’t getting the nice spooky. Hmm, what about all those other shows in the 1960s that did get the nice spooky?

Blending them together as accurately as possible? This is why The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows is so damn funny. Put all those fun spooks together with spooky people who are hurting? It’s HEALING TIME! Woo-woo! And then… are they meeting for the first time? No. Doing the research and I find, these people could essentially know each other already. Pasts are left open on many shows to allow that flexibility.

As in Star Trek V: The Final Frontier.

SPOCK: It’s true. I do not have a brother… I have a half-brother.

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Sybok, Jedi Santa Claus of Vulcan

Come on, THAT must have made ya laugh!

Anyway, as we look over the wild list of characters in The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows, we find these characters being re-acquainted:

Wadsworth and Willie Loomis

Sophia Petrillo and Mrs. Johnson

Elizabeth Stoddard and Lily Munster

Dr. “Hawkeye” Pierce and Dr. Julia Hoffman

Sam Evans/Andre Dupres and Captain Daniel Gregg

As for Endora and Angelique? Of course they know each other!

Then the poor residents of Collinsport have been hooked into being stressed-out so long they’re almost addicted to it. These old acquaintances help them to remember things they’d forgotten, one of those things being how to laugh and enjoy life. (Sound like any DS fans out there?) And again, becoming a comedienne, as  I was hoisted into the massive gaggle of Dark Shadows fans with something different and all the baggage so many have been carting around for so long, using humour is likely how one could get poor Barnabas and Josette to each other in the 1960s.

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Tragedy never seemed to work.


So the list of things to be grateful for:

  • An accidentally healed marriage! (HELL YEAH!)
  • Some bare knowledge that people have been laughing their heads off at my audio work.
  • A re-kindled love for The Ghost and Mrs. Muir.
  • New material from Sir Simon Milligan & Manservant Hecubus. (They deserved a new job together. 🙂 )
  • Finding people who love Thayer David.
  • Seeing Sharon Lentz’s new kitten. (DAMN, that lil’ one is cute!)
  • Finding people who actually love Barnabas Collins and see the depth of his character.
  • Devoted people who don’t believe the hype.
  • New friends who tell you their news and don’t just post memes.
  • Reaching Dark Shadows fans who don’t touch DS fan pages because they know better.
  • Bringing forth new creativity in those who have shown me kindness.
  • Pen pals who still care after all of this time wanting other news. (They now understand there really is no other news.)
  • Long talks on skype with new buddies who have the same passions.
  • Winning “Dark Shadows Memories” from an Angelique/Barnabas fan who likes Monty Python and is awesome.
  • Getting in touch with the Goth crowds again. Damn it, I’m HOME!

But the best thing of all? Many fans of Josette/Barnabas or Maggie/Barnabas, as well as those who puzzled out the reincarnation for so long. They all thought they were alone. Now? They’re meeting and sharing that love for them together. They love the marriage novel. They love seeing the two happy at last. They even love seeing the parallel between Barnabas/Josette & Gomez/Morticia. You know it’s there just from the reciprocation and how strong it is, as well as how spooky.

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As well as other folks who said, “Well, yeah, Barnabas/Josette was a big duh to me, too.”

The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows reaches people who normally “avoid anything smelling even remotely like fan fiction”. It’s read to them, it mixes up the things they like, it gives them the characters in recognizable patterns as well as having them let their hair down. It incorporates other shows and movies they love. (Really, who didn’t want more Wadsworth?)  It questions who we are which is a Western Civilization staple that has been extremely neglected for the last decade. And unlike certain other pairings preferences we show our virtue by saying to others, “Don’t like it? There’s plenty of what you want elsewhere. Go and have it.” But what do they do? They troll. They expound insecurities. They have fits. It almost gives one a warm glow.

I got my last troll review about a fortnight to a month ago. I threw back my head and laughed. It was honestly, truly hilarious.

So in all of these things, we have to thank someone for making the internet better, even when we’re ticked-off at malfunctions and mechanical flaws. Someone was trying to bring us all together. Now the problem is getting us to chat more about what we like, solving problems, and bringing some kind of halt to so much clutter. I’d be very grateful for that.

The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows Radio Drama & Podcast

Peace.

Ep. 14: Amplify, alter pitch, clip silence, breath and clicks… repeat…

A look of longing

It is often with deep sadness I muse over how celebratory we could be in this love but choose to reflect on where our own opinions rest in Dark Shadows. The bizarre snippets of ideas and what I’ve heard about in the fanwork brings me to wonder how adept its fans are in understanding the characters or understanding themselves. As one philosopher told me through long ago echoes from a stage I never saw, “I believe that if we are honest with ourselves, the most fascinating problem in the world is ‘Who Am I?’ What do you mean, what do you feel… when you say the word ‘I’? ‘I, myself’? I don’t think there can be any more fascinating preoccupation than that… because it’s so mysterious. It’s so elusive.”

Myself: A Case Of Mistaken Identity

As I spent time in cases of identity I not only explored myself but explored other people. When folks address a factor of not handing out all my personal details nor a “real name”… well. I’ve worn a plethora of names and identities since I was extremely young, just searching out what identity was, what could be done with it, and as such it makes sense as a creator of not only fanfiction but regular fiction from an early time. As I explored that, I found it easier to understand who other people were. Also, the name Daryl Wor was one of the very first ones I chose for myself with the help of The Muse. But what was the first one? “Shadow”. 😉

So now when I hear myself addressed as “Daryl” many of you have no idea how you’ve addressed me in who I truly am from a young age. I had writers block, anhedonia and frigidity for 8 years. Suddenly in this project I came back to who I was. People say Daryl and suddenly I am me again, I’m myself again. Beyond which I’ve changed my name various times so when you call me “Daryl”? There is no greater truth to me than that. Particularly because my voice and identity is so very androgynous. What better name to use than an androgynous one?


As for the work. Episode 13 is out now and I’m still hearing bits and fragments of invalidation that it’s audio, expensive, time consuming, acting, etc. I suppose the reason this is is partially due to having the side project of “Margaret Josette Dupres” which is only text. However, the audio is so much harder and so far I’ve been greatly left out in the cold from those who enjoy it. I have no stage, I have no frame of reference to my audiences responses. There is little fuel to continue, but continue I must. (And I also have haters and trolls which maximize this stress.)

On top of which the radio drama incorporates so many characters, all of whom I have to perform. For the last few days I’ve gone over repeated performances of lines from Wadsworth, Willie, Roger, Liz, Barnabas, Sam, Dr. Hoffman and Professor Stokes. It’s such an intense struggle to do this because there are parts I need to amplify for sound quality as well as deepen pitches for male voices, or picking out two or three performed lines, find the inflections between those and splicing them together. As like most entertainment, the story moves and the understanding of how difficult it was to put together likely doesn’t find you unless you’ve done such work yourself.

And as many of us know in Dark Shadows fanwork, text is mostly what it is. For some reason ones ears are interpreting this as the same thing because that is what one is used to. How I can alter anyone’s understanding of the difference? I don’t know.

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What I do know is as I have worked repeatedly with Willie’s performances. What he and Barnabas face together in my next episode brings me to tears again and again as I go over the audio work. It’s that profound to me. The man is falling to pieces and so am I. He doesn’t understand how everything changed. As we remember from Dark Shadows and his return from Wyndcliff? He wasn’t unaware of what had happened. He was covering up what he knew to hopefully return in all innocence and wield a shotgun at Joe Haskell getting in his way of Maggie Evans, as well as the crap with Adam that I skipped in my series.

So what kind of Willie Loomis do we have now? One that is forced to recognized not only his past in Collinsport but his past from somewhere else:

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Mr. Loomis is so shocked to see someone from even longer ago, 1954 to be exact, he ain’t gonna play naive! (I’m discerning he was about 14 years old when Wadsworth hired him but I’m leaving it open-ended until more research and discussion can be obtained.) Dear God! It’s that guy who hired me to chop wood for the fireplaces, hide outside and keep my mouth shut about everything? I have no way of covering up what I know at this point. I am in far too much disbelief! And now he’s telling me everything at Collinwood isn’t how I remembered it anymore? This butler? I can never fathom how he knows as much as he does about people, but all I do know is: he damn well does. I better watch out, is all.

So the complexity of this project continues regardless of how “sleeper” it’s function might be. Remember, if you will, how the film Clue itself was so entertaining it likely went over the heads of most in North America. Such seems to be the case with The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows. How I can speed up the process of discussion about the jokes with people? I don’t know. I keep trying out the people who enjoy that movie and now the people who enjoy Elvira, Mistress of The Dark. Somewhere in this crazy train of spooky love have got to be some people who remember how to speak out and say what the hell they’re laughing at or enjoying.

As for what I’ve seen in the Dark Shadows crowd? It’s mostly the spiteful who reign vocally supreme. But many creators of all of these shows, fanwork in some cases, and otherwise, keep hoping for the best.

Still, if you keep hoping for the best from someone else? Well, it’s like the philosopher asks as stated earlier in this article,

“Who am I?”


All I have to ask is, “Why not you?”

Peace, clarity, and reflection,

Daryl

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