Bloody Amplification… (More on Episode 15 & 16)


Babe. That’s mostly what we can say here but…

Morticia Addams’ lines for Episode 15 were created in 2013. I made a better go for Victoria in this scene but because of a newer microphone (same make and company) her words seem louder on the test listen, so I have to amplify for Morticia. Then go through all the bother to save the file where I can play it on my mp3 player with a different set of headphones and now? Morticia is too loud.


Can you see in all of this why Facebook like-clicks and graciously sent memes get on my nerves? 🙂

So, how to combat the issue? Well last night was rather lovely but I’m in the here and now, so those thoughts only help a bit to distract me. Then I have fun make-out daydreams about Willie Loomis. That’s a comfort. ^_^

What to do?

Ah, in between audio edits, I can look over what I have for Episode 16! Why am I so looking forward to this? As some thorough readers remember, my Muse is a harsh mistress. I can barely be entertained by any thing not in my own work, meaning all the different fandoms. I’d like to get back to watching Dark Shadows and The Addams Family for more accuracy and enjoyment, the only film I’ve been able to watch in over a year is Clue, but for Episodes 16 & 17 I get to watch ANOTHER movie. Oh!!! The feeling of an ounce of freedom to stretch out!

beetlejuice film poster

Yes, yes, I know. Too much, eh?

I once decided against bringing in The Ghost With The Most; it’s not 1960s. But then again, how long has this guy been hanging around? Our folks bureaucratically running the afterlife seem to know him very well. Also, the fanwork for him is quite good from what I’ve seen. Are the stripes of his outfit a metaphor to once being part of a chain-gang back in the day, but were made vertical when he passed-on? This could range him between the late 1800’s to the mid 1950’s, and picking up newer slang along the way. As for an earlier version of BJ, it looks manageable. I just pray that possible sequel coming out won’t injure what I put together.

As for why? Most of us know Angelique Bouchard gets around. No matter what, she keeps coming back. It is possible BJ encountered her and this did not turn out to his liking. There is no revenge in his purview for her as a witch… but right now? She’s not a witch. She’s a vampire… more corporeal, you see? And being more corporeal, our striped teamster could very well have his revenge on her:

Angelique vs Beetlejuice

As I posted to facebook a while back, “Well, do you wanna effin’ see it or not?”

I’m wagering not since I haven’t even got enough discussion on episode 7 yet, much less all the ones after that. Oh, well. Guess it’ll be me and my grassroots kin for many months/years to come. Vocal support to enjoyment of the scenes can change that at any moment, but I urge my readers not to wait for someone else to do it. If you want to be on the journey more than my updates you’ll have to participate. And there is little fear in doing so. Some reviewers want to plunk down their identities, but no one has to, you know. 😉

As it happens, I’ve found another person reviewing the marriage novel and with wonderful insight. I am adoring that communication to it. It was what I always wanted. When my pattern of creation altered from goofing-off to channeling all the characters, the project changed completely. My adoptees flocked into my psyche and started showing me things. I was giving and they wanted to give back. As with the marriage novel, Barnabas Collins and Margaret Josette Dupres opened a whole new world of possibilities. Things I’d craved but couldn’t isolate in my own life. When I look at reviews I’m only seeing any splendour I own as a conduit. I become an instrument of empathy and they lead the way. I’ve become a spectator, but a very lonely one with the audience around me saying nothing. I’m in that theatre seat with everyone but they rarely chuckle or express themselves. It’s a vacant room of onlookers staring into space. I feel alone among hundreds of people and my adoptees see that as well. So further reviews on “Margaret Josette Dupres” with that reflection to the depth of love and sharing the passion is deeply important to me. I never knew it was possible for erotica to contain so much love, but this one does. And vampire erotica to bring more uniqueness in the discovery!

As for looking over Episode 16: getting the magic of new creation back. Oh, wow! I’m looking at what I’ve got. There are some wonderful scenes here. Maggie meets Caleb who knows all of her incarnations, Lily and Elizabeth are packing for England together and enjoying each others company, Professor Stokes and Dr. Hoffman coming to terms with how she’s feeling and how he’s feeling about her. ❤

And our Ghost With The Most. I approached him about this. And what did he tell me with open arms?


“I’m all yours, babe! Happy to be of service.”

Have you noticed I haven’t said his name once in this blogpost? It’s true. I’m a believer.

So that’s where I’m at right now, what with these blasted voices amplified either too loud or too soft.

But again, I’m dying to finish Episode 15 and move forward to where I left off in 2013 with the 16th Episode. Why? Because now The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows has to be earned, not bestowed. I’ve gone through too much Hell, obviously, and five chunky responses per episode is hardly much to ask for. As I said in my “How Soon Is Now?” podcast, this is not only free-entertainment, but it’s costing me and it’s costing me a bundle. Either way I can do it for me by the time I reach Episode 16. Uploading more will be up to audience participation.

With further episodes only kept to myself and grassroots helpers? It reminds me of the scene in “Anne of Avonlea” when Anne shows Marilla her new book and says,


“It’s mine. It’s all mine.”

For Barnabas Collins and Margaret Josette Dupres? I’m still working on further chapters too, but I’d like to leave this video for my dear couple. I only listened and tried to help, and in return the two of you gave us the love life we wanted so desperately but couldn’t find, until I asked that question at the end of 2013. Thank you. ❤


The Letters Are Coming In!!!


YES! I was right! Working in tandem with all the different forms of communication can make this thing work. It started with pen pals anyway, at least one. Writing for writing: correspondence. Just got to the P.O. Box today and after rifling through the previous owners junk mail, I got two big whoppers and more to come!

A beautifully hand-written letter with a raven on it. She is extremely grateful to be included in going over the work and becoming pen friends. YES! It was a shaky start being unfamiliar with the characters but the more she listened the more everything grew on her and grew easily. “Constructive-praise” appealed greatly and got her thinking deep on the level of creative pursuits.  Excellent! She’s also very intrigued and delighted by the idea of what happily ever after looks like rather than simply ending a story with a curtain fall.

I must give some gratitude to one of my favourite authors here:


This lady knew what it was to write about living, and common life certainly wasn’t boring!

So this pen pal is excitedly getting immersed, sent me a piece of her own fandom artwork and plans to write more in the future. Just wanted to send me something quick to make sure I knew she was on it. Also a couple photos. Wonderful.

And the next letter…

Oh, dear. I heard my voice was sexy but I guess the coffee shop scene in episode 5 with Barnabas and Maggie turned someone on… Whoah! Well, entertainment is often about pleasure, right? (I must try to ascertain this in a similar fashion with the erotica I never intended to create.) The scene with Stokes and Barnabas wasn’t so much to his liking but there were elements that were enjoyed. Ah, well, no big deal. It was a little goofy, I shall admit. Two gentlemen staggering to read Willie’s letter together can’t be all that much of a speedy show mover. (lol)

W-o-w… all the scenes have great feedback here, from Tony and Carolyn chatting in the car to Victoria and Peter arriving at The Bates Motel. Apparently he figured it out, but that might be due to my last letter including an image of Victoria against Norman Bates’ house with his silhouette as well.

victoria vs norman bates

My gentle readers, as you can see, these pen pals are getting the information slowly, are enjoying it slowly, and to the full. I hope someday we can make this online world equally as valid.

Lucy Maud writing_0


Margaret Josette Dupres: The Trolls

[Edit, June 2018: Since it really looks like so many people are being shown this particular log entry  in order to promote some kind of doofus scandal over me, I’m going to start you off instead with ten, yes TEN, entries that promote the good instead. Which do you prefer?

If you prefer scandal, please proceed, with the full knowledge that you prefer scandal.]

Yep, you’ve been waiting and now you shall finally understand how something as un-important as fanfiction could make so many offended by a love that is presumed “doomed” and “The Pit of Ultimate Darkness”. As many of my readers understand, since I’ve been so extremely honest about it healing my own marriage and how it did, it’s like one helper expressed to me when we were wondering why this story of Barnabas reaching Josette through a reincarnation via Maggie Evans was perpetually dissed and dismissed through an entire generation of time: “Because it’s the truth.” 

People who don’t care will show that in their behaviour. Those people will shrug and move on out of disinterest. We haven’t seen that in this household. What we have seen is the obstruction via people being threatened by Barnabas/Josette continually for whatever reason. All I know? I never intended to write this marriage novel. I asked a question to these adopted children of mine one morning when I had an hour to kill prior to getting my shoes on before heading out to work, “What would it be like if you two were married and reached that bedroom Barnabas has been keeping sacred for so long?” And I got my shocking answer. Apparently, sharing links to look for people who also were interested in this pairing, since so many of them had given up ever looking for it but went into a picture-world instead to simply dream about what it could be, invited some nasty fans of Dark Shadows that brought forth opposition to the pairing.

I shall proceed with typed up clips rather than photos I’ve shared of the moderated comments as this will be easier to tend to in a blog post. Some of which have been seen before on this blog. I shall never understand how a major icon of Dark Shadows, whose introduction kept it from being cancelled, has become a vacuum of hate and corruption to fans of the series.


This romance I found obvious by watching the program and not being caught up with the fans of it… is offensive… Why? Well you’re about to find out.

July 4th 2014:

This is trashy and incomprehensible. Is English your first language?

Spoken like a true troll. Attack the language one is using… Well since you can’t contact me to discuss something like this as a person who might actually give a shit, you are a troll and not worth posting your pointless “review”. Also, you obviously haven’t looked over all the M-rated trash on, henceforth you are a coward and not worth half the time I’m giving you.

July 4th 2014:

“You took a story beloved by millions of people, including me, and turned it into badly written porn. I don’t mind sex scenes but this is offensive.”

Oh, really? In what way? Perhaps since you are posting this bullshit anonymously as the coward you are, even though my email address is everywhere for all and sundry to communicate with? You are the trashy cack-ass who doesn’t give two-shits about Dark Shadows, nor this coupling, and are obviously the person promoting offensiveness and distaste.  A story beloved by millions? Let me know who those millions are for this pairing and I would be extensively grateful, shyster.

July 9th 2014:

Julia and Eliot? The gayest guy in Collinsport (which is saying quite a lot)? OMG ROTFLMAO!

And so am I, considering you are trolling my work anonymously and can’t be upfront and just contact me personally as I’ve been asking people to do. You, my dear troll, are a shit-disturber and contribute absolute nothing to the Dark Shadows fandom except nasty reviews at a love you will never comprehend, which is Julia/Eliot. Prof. Stokes expressed to Angelique during the dream curse that she was very beautiful and thus hard to look at. Since you are a f******g homophobe, too, considering you pretty much just called Professor Stokes a faggot, I think you can lie back in the knowledge that you’ve added your disgusting putrescence to a world you proclaim to love. You don’t love it. You hate it. Take a hike and rot.

July 11th 2014:

Reincarnation is ridiculous.

Oh? Was I writing a non-fiction treatise on that? How stupid are you? Why do you even bother with this supernatural soap-opera since people like you continue to be offended by the supernatural elements of it? I seriously believe The Bible and Jane Austen is where idiots like you need to start concentrating your efforts. You’d truly be better off. Now take your puerile bullshit and leave people like us the f**k alone. But you won’t, because your life is so empty and pointless you have to go hunting around online for people to f**k with. Shows how much you matter to anyone. (I speak from experience.)

Moving on. Now we get to the book editor’s troll reviews. This woman contacted me because she was idiotic enough to truly believe that with a multi-fandom there might be money involved in my creation, money that she could possibly gain from my hard effort. My husband and I had quite a time deciphering her rotten advice about contacting DJ’s through a 1980s TV station. Yeah, I know… WTF??? An 80s TV station… but contact the DJs there? What? I should have known better when she was pro-Angelique and called Barnabas a cock-tease. Again… why do people who like these women want to force Barnabas to marry them? I don’t even know!

Anyway, this biotch was a major component to figuring out who the hell to avoid. Ever since then I make sure I find out what pairing people are into before promoting my work to them. There are Dark Shadows fans and then there are people who have some screwed up agenda. My agenda? Find my people, I don’t care what your preference is as long as it’s in keeping with the relief series I’m shooting for. Everyone else? Enjoy the fan work made in the last 40 years and live it up. The rest of us want something different and if you don’t want to come to the party? I don’t give a shit! Fine! Go away!

angelique barnabas


Oh jeez… Cindy the supposed book editor… There are so many troll reviews… I don’t even know where to start…


The one true love of Barnabas Collins was Angelique. Not Josette, Julia, Vicky, Maggie, Rachel, Kitty, the Roxannes, or Marilyn Monroe. ANGELIQUE! Fanfiction won’t change canon.

Okay… so if it won’t, then… why are you bothering with what I’m doing? You’ve basically been making my own case for me. Good Lord. LOL!

(Anyone notice how she uses names similar to Cindy but vaguely different? P’ff!)


Barnabas loved Angelique all along. She was his “only” love. He said so himself.

Yeah, in a bad story line barely any of us believe. Dream on, loser.

Guest (if one can call her that)

“Canon tells a different story. Angelique The ONLY love of Barnabas Collins (as stated by Barnabas himself)  Josette nothing”

Makes you wonder why she is so persistent in trolling this information to me if she is so secure in this knowledge…


Anyone who loved Barnabas would die. Except Angelique since it was her curse. Terribly ingenious. [Says the lady who told me ‘This is hot writing’ and wanted to make money off of me.] And in the end, Barnabas admitted she was his only love. Tough luck Josette.

Tough luck to you, troll, who doesn’t, won’t and never will have a beloved in her life, as *I* do. 😛

Ohhh, cream of the proverbial crop! Check out THIS guest name:


Barnabas’s love transcended time and spanned the centuries-his love for ANGELIQUE. Josette was too much a nit wit to notice.

Yep! That’s why it healed this nit-wit’s marriage. Dream on, troll… dream on.


Barnabas didn’t love Josette. His love “burned as strong” for Angelique as hers for him. His rage was at himself for rejecting her. 

Yeah, well we all get rather annoyed at ourselves for certain lusts and for certain troll reviews after proclaiming a “cease and desist communication” and then trolling for seven months after the fact. Idiot. This only changed your life because you couldn’t make money. It changed mine because my marriage was healed. So piss off, f**k face.

Q and A smooch


Angelique rules! Josette drools. He couldn’t fight true love forever

Geeeeez… this lady is OLDER than I am??? She certainly doesn’t act like it. I enjoy Homeward Bound like the next pet person, but this lady? P’ff!

Guest (if you can call her that…)

Very humourous. Everyone knows that Queen Angelique rules and Josette drools. Barnabas said so himself. Or do you think he was smoking wacky weed? LOL.

No, actually, I think you have been smoking Scotch Broom, the stuff that gives one a major headache and induces vomiting but they force themselves to smoke it because there is nothing else around to imbibe at this point.

Lady, you have spent seven months of your life opposing me because I wouldn’t give in to your fandom appeals. Perhaps you gave me stress, but you spied on my exposing this via facebook as we all laughed our asses off at your expense. And what did I do in response? I kept writing the marriage novel. When I work, I work hard. If you were trying to convince me that Barnabas and Josette did not love each other? Well, I’ve been through the ringer with bullies and I know all the tricks. You only succeeded in making me believe in it, and myself, even more. And I contacted the book firm you suggested to me to let them know what you’d been up to. You edited one chapter without my asking you to and then claimed your notes would be too difficult to comprehend, then sent me the scans of those notes. We looked over them. A seventh-grade English student would understand them.

Honestly? It would make little difference to anyone in Dark Shadows since they are secure in what they know via their understanding of the series, but you’ve proven for all of us that what we’re shooting for is true. Your name is Cindy, and you just left your troll reviews obvious with giving out so many rhyming titles like this:


Maggie was so NOT Josette’s reincarnation. And this silliness that attention from another man would turn Angelique from Barnabas is fundamentally hilarious. It would be for any woman-since when are we so shallow?-but even more so for Angelique. She’d had other husbands but never lost sight of her destiny, which was Barnabas.  As he was hers. His ONLY love.

Okay, dumb-ass. Then why are you trolling my work? If this is so true? Why don’t you read the zillion stories about them or write your own? Easy answer: You’re pissed and you know it’s not true. You’re being eaten by a major disease and you can’t be arsed to find something more constructive to do than troll what I’m trying to achieve. (And you still haven’t returned the CDs I sent you as you claimed you would.) I frankly do not give a shit considering you bullied me and confused our household with your bullshit. For all I am concerned you can take your Angelique obsession and rot for all I care. All I did was watch Dark Shadows and all you did was forget about it and get lost in your own ideas of what it was about. I can’t forget because I am working to heal EVERYONE’S hurts, not just Barnabas’. You called him a cock-tease. That is not love. That is some lust-driven sickness.

I would have continued on with Lari’s troll reviews… but for today, I think what I’ve listed here is enough.

I came in to do a relief series because of Sam Evans. Sam Evans’ demise was the last straw for me. But I juggled the issues to get everyone strait. Barnabas and Josette/Maggie were just another set in my adopted nursery, but apparently it’s some major effacing issue in Dark Shadows. I really don’t care. I’m just trying to do the best job I can for ALL of my adoptees. And if you don’t like what I’m doing? Please leave. 

I never intended to do the marriage novel, but so far as I can see it’s garnering the best support because fans of it are those that pay attention to all of the characters, not just Barnabas and Maggie.

I am only sharing more links to my audio files online to find people who will help me complete the work so I can carry on with my life. Considering most of my beloved friends have ignored me due to the fact that I don’t have a car, I’m not looking forward to the event coming up soon via my extended relations. Honestly? I don’t want to see them. I don’t want to have to tell them that I have been so disappointed in them about barely caring for us over here. (It’s extremely sad that the internet has not only managed to promote zombie-robot behaviour with device technology which demotes communication, it’s sadder still that those who use it defend that kind of behaviour.)

But look over this blog post and try to tell me that I don’t deserve better for entertaining all of you silent people. Look at the shit I’ve had to deal with. Look at the crap I’ve had to put up with. Read this blog post again and try to tell me that I don’t deserve better. I already know that I do.

I’ve asked over and over for correspondence. I know that my entertainment is good and I want to finish it so I can go back to my original material, should anyone be so deserving of reading it. (I doubt it.)

For Margaret Josette Dupres and The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows? I weep for the future. I truly do



Interview with blogger Daryl Wor of The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows

A fitting addition for me on Mother’s Day. ❤

Sumiko Saulson

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The Blogger

Daryl Wor is an actor/writer/comedienne who creates the podcast, audio-drama and writes the blog for a (mainly) 1960’s multi-fandom creation: The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows. Having worked on original material prior to this, also delving into several spooky or supernatural worlds, combining many beloved screen characters of the darker but fun variety is a challenge but manageable. The fandoms involved are numerous but the main ones mixed in are day-time drama Dark Shadows, two characters from several comedy skits on The Kids In The Hall, Wadsworth from the film Clue (which took place in 1954), The Ghost & Mrs. Muir television program, The Addams Family, and Lily from The Munsters.

Previously a vision-therapist and a high-school teacher for a special education program with emotionally-disturbed students requiring therapy, problem-solving by example is nothing new to her. The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows, as well as a vampiric and…

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“Simplicity” The Last Dance: Barnabas/Josette


“Simplicity” The Last Dance: Barnabas/Josette


My inner haunting
Leaves me too lonely
Leaves me too empty
Killing me slowly

In certain lights
In these stars
Night fixtures
Here in candle light

Killing me as I fall…

As I let you down
I am nothing
You still remain as I hurt
And I disappoint
I am nothing
You still remain…

This secret feeling
That feeds my passion
That burns and inspires
Killing me slowly
Still you continue
You dream louder still
In virtue, and I see you bleeding

I cry and cry inside
You cry forever
Still disappear as I do hide…

I am I
I am I
I am I

I will fall
I will let you down
I will forget
It could be the reason you’re still bleeding

Still you remain
You remember
Even while your heart is breaking
I will make you hurt
Make you cry and cry
And I will be your greatest failure

Still you remain
You remember
You’re the reason I’m still dreaming

Like a child who believes
You believe in me
Be my witness
Words could never say how you’re my world
My simplicity
You make me everything

Everything I am and still believe in
In your simplicity
In your dreaming
My world
My reason to believe