Now Working On Episode 15: A Blundering Succubus

How odd. Almost a disappointment to find all my cavities are filled and I won’t get to see my awesome dentist in 6 months. Hmm, well, I do notice a strange gap above one tooth. Perhaps I can return? He even seemed a little disheartened we were all done. We chatted about John Steinbeck. I told him how I enjoyed “Travels With Charley”. He said he had a copy but hadn’t read it yet and that night he might start! ^_^ Then he asked me about my brief career as a teacher. Well, I bleached my hair last night. What might he say if I get it blue again and go back in there? Hmmm…

Now that Episode 14 in The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows is done, finding the old-magic again has been a bounce of ups and downs. I remember I would do the performances and listen to the dialogue to make sure everything was right. I think I might have to do that again, lots of cutting and pasting. However, seeing the previous chemistry between Willie and Sarah, I have a better grasp of where they’re at for my series.

Willie meets sarah again

[Remember, gentle readers, we are going grassroots with The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows. Since many of you didn’t respond to how often and descriptively I detailed my needs to discussion, we’re plugging ahead without uploads, so if you’re wondering why Episode 14 “Reunion At The Old House” isn’t on the various websites you’ve been downloading from? Well, you didn’t respond. So the sparse, but heavier commentators are currently and secretly receiving the spoils. We continue with or without you. That’s all there is to it. Or as one of my best supporters, Warren Freeman, has told me, “It’s not like you didn’t warn them and as archly and often as you could!”]


Considering Wadsworth is back in Mr. Loomis’ life, I can see that this might bring him a gentler attitude just in the stretch of old recognition to a past he hadn’t associated with for ages. Someone who found this poor kid and gave him a job. In memory when we meet someone from a younger time? Those behavioural patterns can re-surge. At approximately age 14 what would Willie Loomis have seen and experienced at Hill House off of Route 41? Did Wadsworth find him on Route 41? (This is why my Willie photo album on Facebook is called “Once Upon A Time In New England”. That’s where Clue takes place and Maine is a part of that.)

willie and wadworth black and white

The other thing I’m noticing in my old demo for Episode 15 (A Blundering Succubus) is Victoria Winters voice really isn’t right. I know I managed to see a sassy attitude coming out from all she’d been through. After Collinwood 1960’s and 1790’s? Was Norman Bates really going to shake up Victoria all that much?

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No. Not really. 😉

So making digs at her sweetheart, Peter, as he drove the Dodge Dart like a mad thing away from The Bates Motel was rather fun. But yes, I need to study up on Victoria Winters and try to get her voice and mannerisms more accurate.

This where the project gets a little difficult. I now have so many new and very dear friends made, but since I adore almost every single character I have to be very empathetic in different ways when talking to different fans. There are people who snub some characters and glorify others. I, straightforwardly, love them all and try to channel every one for the good they have to offer and what they’re preferences are. That’s why seeing some of the romantic pairings that are preferred or created for fanwork threw me for a loop! (When I heard about Barnabas marrying a reincarnation of Sarah? Wow, I sure didn’t feel at all weird about bring her back as his daughter in “Margaret Josette Dupres”! YIKES!)

Still, when I went combing for my relief series that I couldn’t find, I was flabbergasted to barely see this:

HOLY CRAP

nor this:

Barnabas and Josette

Seemed fairly obvious to me, especially the combination. I started my work before this:

2012 barnabas and josette

So when that happened? I had more excitement in what I was shooting for. Wherever the interuption takes place is where the characters led me, so Carolyn/Tony, Peter/Victoria, Hoffman/Stokes and Willie Loomis/Nurse Jackson all seemed to fit together in splendid ways I was experiencing with them. Josette=Maggie/Barnabas? Wow, never thought I was facing so much grief, as well as so much love. Tony/Carolyn did wake me up quite a bit, but when I tapped into Barnabas’ character, his complexity and his extreme romantic nature, especially for Josette and she for him, truly changed my life.


However, the plan is to continue forward. Getting Episode 15 accurate and finding the old-magic is proving as troubling as I feared and the lack of commentary, as well as looking for just enough to get spurred into action, is a bit draining.


But still we fight on, holding all the west shore of Anduin; and those who shelter behind us give us praise, if ever they hear our name; much praise but little help.

— Boromir Son of Denethor

(From a novel by Osheen Nevoy. ❤ )

Episode One: Parapsychology (How to review The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows)

Good Lord, I am now creating comprehension questions for my series. It’s like I’m an underpaid teacher all over again. Well considering I’ve paid through the nose to create this bloody thing, the least I can get is commentary to the episodes in order to keep going, otherwise we’re going Grassroots with the series and I will send the new episodes to the people who have commented the most.

But what of Daryl’s teaching practices? Public school system? Yep, I was in it and I knew it sucked. Then I became a teacher and saw… yes, it still sucks. And wow, look at all the administrative politics involved too!

We had a different classroom, one where we didn’t know which students had already read what. The text books were as boring and crappy as I remembered when I was going to school. So as a teacher? What did I do? I changed it.

James Burke and Schwepps

As James Burke explains in the last episode of Connections, “I’m not saying give everyone a computer and tell them ‘Help yourself’. Where would you even start? Ask yourself if there is anything in your life that you want changed. That’s where you start.” 

As a teacher I brought in material I knew high school kids would enjoy and also worked in themes: Marxism (as in Groucho, etc. Not Karl), Morbidity, which stretched to articles in the zine Morbid Curiosity as well as other bits by L.M. Montgomery that I could find. I went into Pirates, which I’d studied heavily, and we enjoyed The Buccaneer with Yul Brynner as Jean Lafitte. We studied The Beat Generation and what the Beatnik movement did. I typed up and brought in my Aunt’s own program as I knew her writing was spot on. The result?

“Daryl is different. She gives stories to her classroom I actually want to read!”


So perhaps this is necessary for The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows. In order to understand how to comment on the material? I suppose comprehension questions are in order. If I get nothing but numbers again I doubt I’ll keep doing this, well, unless Helena enjoys going over the material once more and answering the questions.

So this might take two windows to do, but I have a feeling a number of you out there do have that capability. So let us start with episode one. Read the scenes (or listen) and answer the questions with your own personal reflections in the review or comment boxes. Here we go:


Text of Episode One

The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows, Episode One: Parapsychology

  • How did you enjoy Wadsworth and Roger’s entrance to The Old House? Some amusing bits happen there.
  • As Barnabas enters Collinwood did you enjoy the joke Victoria made about Roger? How about the kitchen? Did it slowly dawn on you who was creating the mess?
  • Barnabas returns home to find Wadsworth in Josette’s room. Any startling discoveries there? Fun bits?
  • Carolyn, Burke and the parapsychologists from “Poltergeist”. Out of place in time but still, any amusement for this part? Also we see who has been causing the trouble in the kitchen. Can I get an “Ah-hahaha!” for that? 🙂
  • Barnabas meets Maggie again at the coffee shop, likely wondering how he got up the courage to go. (This is post-kidnapped Maggie, after all.) Any fun stuff there? (By the way, I made up Mildred Mayhem.) Considering Wadsworth was played by Tim Curry there are little Rocky Horror jokes laced throughout my show.
  • The ride home with Wadsworth, goofy stuff occurs, of course but the moral of what Wadsworth expresses in Maggie’s looks? How did that strike you?
  • Ah, and then finding Roger outside the house to explain all that’s been going on. Well, here comes Wadsworth again with an explanation to ease their minds. And of course the outro song. How was that for enjoyment?

And here is the link for the audio:

Episode One: Parapsychology


Again, if this works, I’ll keep posting more comprehension questions. Don’t worry. I’m not your usual teacher. Frankly, I’m fed up with public education and think we all should be getting something much better considering all the problems and money that goes into it.

Peace.

The Love of Dr. Julia Hoffman

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Yep, don’t hear too much about this. It looks like even The Riddler can keep these goodies from us. But be it a riddle or no, it is true. We do have love for Dr. Julia Hoffman.

Haters of her do exist, as well as those who dislike her, but I rarely run across them. When I first saw Dr. Julia Hoffman coming into play on Dark Shadows I thought, “Whoah, she’s got some nerve.”

Remind you of anyone? 😉

My own irritation with that dwindled as time went on. She seemed to calm down when she came to Collinwood and got lost in the swirl of so many problems. As like with Willie Loomis, once a person has to identify with the hurts of others they become more empathetic and concerned. I remember Quentin Collins changed as well when he found himself in a situation he couldn’t control.

For sympathizers of Dr. Julia Hoffman we have some of the best possible people, we truly do. They not only love Julia and the Julia/Barnabas romantic pairing, but who else do they love?

Barnabas Collins

Barnabas Collins

They love him romantically, or lustily, or as a friend. They say, “Oh, it would have been nice if he reciprocated Julia Hoffman! I like that idea. She cared so much about him.” They also express themselves with sincerity as a fan of anything else. I’ve often heard from them, “Now you know I’m a Julia/Barnabas fan,” before moving forward with something fun and chatty about my work. It doesn’t bother me to hear this. It’s said in a well-grounded way that someone would tell me, “Well, you know I’m really into The Beatles rather than Depeche Mode”. It’s like the love of a music preference while maintaining people have other favourites in their lives.

The other thing lovers of Julia Hoffman tell me is, “Wow! Professor STOKES?! For Julia? That’s a splendid idea! I hadn’t thought of that. Professor Stokes is great and he was interested in Julia too!”

Super Stokes

He’s groovy, he’s cool, he has a monocle!

And generally? Julia lovers like a lot of things. They are upbeat, winning and they know the difference between reality and fantasy. “Hey, it’s just a story. It’s a good story, but we’re pretending and we’re exploring that. No big deal.” Occasionally they do shake a fist at Barnabas Collins for not loving Julia, but they do it once and then they’re done. 🙂

Julia lovers have a fair grasp of psychology as well and look at themselves and their lives as such, similar to Julia herself. They meet with Julia-extremists thinking they’ve found a kindred-soul, then watch further seeing the odd behaviour that comes out and… slowly back away. “Oh dear,” they think, “this isn’t going down as I expected. This person has, uh, more than an enjoyment of Julia/Barnabas. In fact, I’m not sure they truly are enjoying what they’re going for.”

I, myself, felt the need to analyze all this to try and figure out what the hell was happening with my own work getting so darned much silence and for so long. That is changing but 2014 wasn’t the best year of my life. I’ve been through ringer with fans of all sorts. As patiently as I could. I wasn’t often given that gesture of kindness in return. It builds up on ya. (Believe me, like-clicks a go-go and friend requests on facebook without discussion as to why increases that confusion, too.)


Lovers of Julia Hoffman have been some of the better supporters to what I’ve put together. They see a unique method of handling both Julia’s woes as well as that of Barnabas Collins, not to mention everyone else. And because of the likelihood that the Julia/Barnabas pairing is popular they were never afraid to speak up nor get nasty about Julia/Eliot. They like the characters for themselves and have a preference for the positive. They don’t grind their teeth watching Dark Shadows, but usually respond to bad things occurring on it with a breath of, “Oh, noooo… *sigh* Well, it IS a soap-opera.”

The concern of sympathy for Julia Hoffman’s love of Barnabas Collins can be summed up in that one word:

Sympathy.

That’s what makes these fans some of the best for Dark Shadows. They appreciate the struggles everyone had to go through, not only the characters but the creators of the program. They also sympathize with anyone facing hardship and, like Julia, want to help. They haven’t been scared away by anyone going nuts at them for being a fan of Julia/Barnabas, whereas fans of Roxanne, Maggie and Josette have been hit with the troubles of not being a Julia/Barnabas fan. Julia lovers are not only easy-going but they care about coming to the bottom of a problem. They listen intently, they look at as many details of a situation as possible. Very important when it takes that kind of comprehension to keep track of so many wild things going on in Dark Shadows.

These lovers of Julia or Julia/Barnabas have turned out to be some of the best people I have ever encountered online. Being less fragmented by not feeling outnumbered they keep to concerning themselves with friendship and communication. They enjoy a lot of things beyond Dark Shadows. They also enjoy Star Trek as several other listeners of mine have told me. If I had a dollar for every time we have detailed discussions about Star Trek and Star Trek: The Next Generation I might have just enough money to pay for half of The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows.


Back in the late 1970s, Harlan Ellison described peoples difficulty with science-fiction, mainly those in charge of our entertainment, “They see machinery, they see machinery and they think that’s what science-fiction is and it isn’t. It’s about people and the effect of the future on people. They can not get it through their heads.”

Lovers of Julia Hoffman also know that it’s about people, all kinds of people, everything is related and a persons feelings are important. They have never shrugged off my hurts at making so many laugh and never getting to find out what they laughed at or why. They’ve seen my temper flare and they come to me quickly with concern telling me, “I know you, and I know you aren’t mean-spirited… heh, heh, heh, actually, some of your sarcastic comments left me in stitches!”

Julia sees Eliot

Yes, we love Dr. Julia Hoffman and we know she’s a big-girl.

Her happiness is our happiness, as well as everyone’s happiness even when we, ourselves, are not doing so well.

Loving Julia Hoffman for herself means we love everyone for who they are and want to help. Please, keep it up! This is a good thing and I heartily endorse it. ❤

Peace.

Why Create The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows, Or Any Story?

There is a lot of behaviour I’ve enacted in this project that I am not proud of.

Why did this happen?

I expected for human beings to behave as naturally as I discovered them to be as I progressed through this life. When someone makes them laugh they show it, when someone entertains them they applaud, when someone touches their inner depths they discuss it.

It’s taken over three years to get a mere handful of people to do this for my work.

Why?

Several reasons, perhaps. One being device technology, of course. It presented us with lazier ways of perusing a massive source of information so that the internet no longer was a 2-way street, nor a zone of communication with several people interacting as we had in the days of textual forums. It is now presented to us in more robotic maneuvers and more of a one way street where people tapping into the online world are not expected to respond with anything more than a like-click or a thumbs down if even that.

I have done so much hard work to get my biggest achievement to youtube. Really, why wouldn’t I become extremely angry and post rants when all I got were thumbs down over there? If you were me wouldn’t it piss you off too? One of my best helpers has let me recognize that if the same malarkey I’ve received from doing what I do and to not require commentary for it would never be handled well by anyone doing it unless they didn’t care. Someone doing what I do would be a caring person. Caring is something that this new world has diminished in vast amounts this century.

My husband told me, “I understand when someone says ‘That’s just the way the internet is, or how things are.’ When you show surprise to that, but to back it up with, ‘That’s just the way things are because that’s how they SHOULD be,’ that’s when it all breaks down into idiocy.” And I agree with him. This creation was not invented to be a one-way street, but we’ve been so programmed that it should be. We like the fact we’ve been hoodwinked toward laziness of faculties and disassociation with each other in using it. In fact, we cradle this laziness and obliviousness to our very souls. As History has shown, humans in masses are very easy to program into complacency.

But what of the symbols in that complacency?

One thing that’s really driving me insane are Jesus memes.

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The teachings of Christ have been degraded into share files. “Yes! This is what I believe! I’ll LIKE-click it. I’ll SHARE-FILE it. But I won’t do it. I won’t behave that way. I won’t help my neighbour. I will not be The Good Samaritan. Forget the teachings themselves, but I’ll post them and believe in them. Action makes no difference.”

But what of the people who’ve helped me the most? Yes, they are believers in these teachings as well as The Gospel (Good News). They BEHAVE like Christians. A blogger reached out immediately and devotedly to my cause. A reader responded as she would to any material she was enjoying. Another saw my pain and spoke up. A writer showed her merit in talent and worth as well as craftsmanship in the arts. Two others I wrote to asking for help showed their worth in what they could do. If they couldn’t do much in the commentary department they certainly could in empathizing with my troubles.

But what of all the silent downloaders, listeners, readers?

Some of them are robotic like-clickers and they show-off their religious beliefs with almost anything but the virtues of which it is based on. Those virtues are kindness, communication, consideration for someone hurting. These are things many of the silent refuse to embody. I’m not sure why. Perhaps they’re simply church-goers rather than enablers of a better society.

In many regards they behave as if the world of Dark Shadows is more important to them than The Bible. They’re more involved in their own egos of which romantic pairing makes the most sense to them than listening to what the characters might want for themselves. This would definitely stretch out to not listening to real people. Real people, like fictional characters, have wants and desires, things that move them, sorrows that hurt them, trials and joys. Watching people suffer like a bystander and only filming the hurt or sharing the file is not something I see as Biblical practice, or practice of any faith except perhaps that of…

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Anton LaVey…

It is the manual of utter self-indulgence, that which cares for no one but the self, the ego and its higher purpose to feed the lusts of the body. If one cannot release themselves of guilt? Revel in it. Ah, yes. I see this behaviour all around me. Perhaps “The Black Pope” is wise to reveal such atrocities in the human psyche to us. If you can’t beat ‘em? Join ‘em! And that’s been my experience at times in this project The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows. Perhaps “The Pit of Ultimate Darkness” truly is as dark as Sir Simon Milligan announces in his comedic manner. It’s certainly shown its listeners to be.

Some, I will admit, are likely ones with disabilities, or low-functioning communication skills, be it from lack of funds or lack of practice. But there are several I know for certain are able bodied and can easily type out communication. Why they resist expressing their enjoyment when I’ve repeatedly explained that is the need I have in being their entertainer?

Perhaps, as Brian Wilson sings, “God Only Knows”.

My main purpose has been in helping others. When they want a different romantic pairing I’m more than happy to direct them to someone else’s work. When they want more of mine? Well what were all of those workshops for? I deduced perhaps some of my listeners had debilitating problems so we provided what we could to help others out so they could help me. Working constructively together.

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When silence is all a person gets one has to expect a wide array of utter confusion from the almost total lack of information. Not only do I not know what was enjoyed I don’t even know why people can’t simply TELL me why they can’t talk to me either. How was I not going to go insane from that much confusion? How? Turning to more intoxicants, liquor being one of them, in loneliness and confusion? Yes. In uncovering fandom politics and bizarre control tactics over a majority of romantic pairings in the fanwork? Of course! That’s going to drive someone mad. This is a television show, not re-writing the Talmud.

Keeping kinder hearts silent? What was the grand gesture in that? How was persistently giving Dr. Julia Hoffman her crush over and over again going to help anyone? It certainly never helped her. She’s a fictional character, a strong woman made weak by isolating our own desires in her, or those of Angelique. Forcing the issue and telling-off a major icon for which Dark Shadows would have been canceled if he hadn’t been introduced; Why was invalidating his hurts and longings good for any of us, or him or Julia?

We resist who Barnabas Collins loves for some sinister reason. We resist standing up for what we believe in beyond posting memes about it or like-clicking it for another sinister purpose. We’d rather listen to ourselves than someone else for some diabolical scheme. I’m not sure what it is. Shame? Programming? Shyness? Obliviousness? All of the above?

The standards of storytelling imply that it’s all about conflict. I’ve found that it isn’t. It’s about reaching a moral precept or several ethical values. In Episode 2 of The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows Wadworth explains to Barnabas something similar in himself about Willie Loomis.


WADWORTH: I understand that he may not have been the most superior underling in the course of matters, but have you considered that he was already rather abused to begin with?

BARNABAS: … a… a bit.

WADSWORTH: See anything similar in yourself there, sir?

BARNABAS: (regretfully) Oh… yes. I’m afraid I do.

WADSWORTH: Yes. So rather than concern yourself with him writing memoirs to betray you, don’t you think you might have put some credit in his way?


And in Episode 14 (still in production) what does Wadsworth express to Mr. Loomis about Barnabas Collins?


WADSWORTH: Well, if you ever wondered why he became so tragic, it might have been for the same reason that you did.


Is this ringing any bells with anyone? Is storytelling solely about conflict or something deeper? Is History all about war and suffering and politicians? On all counts, no. It’s about moral precepts, teaching us something. But what are our moral precepts of the day?

“That movie sucked so hard it could have whitened my carpet!”

Yep, a funny way of bashing something, or just outright bashing it entirely. This is the trap we are in right now. Dissing, bad-mouthing, deciding that our anal-retentive persnickety attitude passes for developed aesthetic taste. If we have something good to say it better be as rotten as we can make it.

But still we claim to be spiritual, trustworthy and downright good people. We hate bullies. We despise rudeness all the while being rude.

I have never been ruder in my entire life than since I came to know so many fans of Dark Shadows.

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Was that because of the television program? No.

I was much nicer when I was watching it on my own and working on The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows. I became rude when I got the silence, when I saw the bickering, when I saw the abuse-hungry control freaks. I watched the arguments and inaccurate statements of fans. I watched a woman be the worst thing she could ever be as she lashed out on people who enjoyed the 2012 film. Marina Sirtis commented that people were not accepting in the beginning of “Star Trek: The Next Generation”. I’ve been dying to tell her, “You think you had it bad? Check this shit out!”

What good is a fandom if the loud arrogant types silence the better behaved enjoyers of it?

What good are the teachings of spirituality if the followers don’t act on what was taught?

What good is The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows if no one is learning from the series but just downloading it like greedy schmucks?

What good is the internet, invented for communication, when we don’t use it to talk to each other?

What good are any of the stories we’re fed in books, movies, or television shows if we don’t learn from the examples they show?

They all basically say the exact same thing, “Do in life what you would regret not having done when you are facing death.”

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That’s my question. If Daryl Wor gets hit by a car tomorrow, what will you regret not having told her?

Analysis of Preferred Pairings For Barnabas Collins # 4

I noticed people toodling with the blog on the pairings analysis. Really, this one is the kicker! It really is. It’s awesome and I say this with SO much love to Nancy Barrett’s groovy ability. (Remember Tony/Carolyn was my initial inspired romantic pairing.) And here is the audio of all of it:

https://archive.org/download/AnalysisOfPreferredPairingsForBarnabasCollins/AnalysisOfPrefferedPairingsForBarnabasCollins.mp3

The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows

4) Carolyn Stoddard???

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Yes… oddly there is a little bit of call for this… mostly from what I’ve seen in Marilyn Ross novels. However, I haven’t met any fans of it. I believe it was a flight of fancy because it’s even MORE blatantly obvious she’s a cousin and many of us go “GROSS!”

Would it even work? Well, they do say at fanfiction.net unleash your imagination. However, I think one would be pretty imaginative to get this to work out to anything resembling happily ever after.

Moving on…

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The Promise of What Praise Can Do: “Margaret Josette Dupres (A Novel)” [Note 6]

Yes. I am very tired of editing Episode 14 in The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows. So I thought I’d focus on this again just to make due with all the program crashes and interruptions, as well as weaning myself from facebook minus twice a week. I’d like to confess that I have several more chapters planned for “Margaret Josette Dupres” as well as re-starting “200 Years Away” which is the T-rated version. I’m leaving the old one up because it just got too messy switching things out and when I restart it I want to get a note on it to inform followers when the re-write is going to happen.

One thing I have learned in all this is it’s a nice compliment to get a follow/favourite on a story. You at least have some recognition that someone cares about it enough not to want to miss anything. I do blame device tech for much of the troubles in lack of commentary and the lack of letter-writing ability. I figure if someone can read and speak they have the wherewithal to type down their reflections on material they enjoyed. People blame ADHD, but I see this more as the distract-ability the internet has enmeshed us in. A pen pal tells me even people sending her mail have reduced their skills to things less worthy than greeting cards. OUCH!

Our lives have been simplified by correspondence in bits & bytes. No wonder I’m making so many people angry. For ten years they’ve been trained not to think. Oops. Sorry, I thought that was what the cerebral cortex was for and why we have it to invent all this stuff. Hey, if you can’t hook up a bluetooth keyboard to your device, you could get some time at the library. One of my best supporters did that. 🙂 Especially Chapter 5 of “Margaret Josette Dupres”. Maggie hits on some serious wisdom there and all back in the 1960s.

Chapter 9 of this story is another bedroom scene, but it contains the more vampiric aspect of the relationship. One person who didn’t review said it was one of her favourites, for the darkness and the consideration Barnabas starts to recognize in who Maggie is now considering her memories of previous lifetimes. He also knows that sooner or later her reaction to his harm on her will need to come out, and need to be engaged upon him. Considering how woe-be-gone this man of romance is, he’s looking toward the inevitable. Becoming such a horror himself he feels the need to prove his merit to the one woman he crossed centuries to find again and again.

Yes, I know. In Dark Shadows, this couple was doomed. But… what if they weren’t? Some of us who remain nameless were quite relieved at the goofy 2012 movie’s ending. We didn’t know each other then but a few of us do now and we all walked out of the theater completely stunned! They made it! Barnabas & Josette reached each other! And they’re vampires!

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All right! Pour some champagne! 

Mind you, this wasn’t why they became vampires for my series. The Wedding Night just threw itself at me in that light. It took a while to sort out why they were, but then I realized, “Wait, we’ve got these lovers reaching each other through her THREE incarnations. It’s a spooky community, and hey cousin Lily (Munster) wanders around in the day. That could be a wedding present. Got it!”

Which I guess presents one of the latest generation gaps. Old Dark Shadows fans prefer everyone winding up totally domestic whereas us younger fans grew up with The Lost Boys, Beetlejuice, Love At First Bite, Roger Corman’s “The Raven“, Harry Potter, The Addams Family films, trippy mangas and comics where all this just gets dealt with and most of the time using a sense of humour. A Collinsport working out but remaining spooky isn’t that far of a stretch.

Then weird haters who I think are younger fans… I dunno. They seem really offended by a relief series for Dark Shadows. I have to shake my head. I get called out in announcements, where I’m not likely to read any of it, that I should just “enjoy the ride”. Do they say this to all fanwork creators? What are they so worried about? No one is making them read or listen to it. (I’ve just been ticked-off bizarre behaviour like that scared so many people who love the characters into silence. Haters might at least pat themselves on the back for being that cruel. That’s a rather grievous accomplishment. Could take a little pride in the harm they already achieved. Want some more horror? Pick up a newspaper. It’s all in there.)


Now on to the positive!

Helena, chapter 9 

This was erotic (although I was having nauseous moments with the blood) and a pleasure to read. You know, it would be interesting to know of Laura and Roger’s “fiery” relationship. I bet that would be kind of epic with a bowl of popcorn and eyes glued to the pages. lol And with the 3 or 4 of them (B/ M (J/KF) in bed, it WAS a Collinwood orgy although 2 of them were dormant (or were they?).

Ah, yes, that is the point that he’s finding even more alluring. All those beings are in one. Depending on how much time Barnabas spends in the varying time periods, his bride is older in terms of at least 60 years of memories.

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Well you have done it again my friend. Regaling the reader with the most intimate of details captured within a 200 year old love affair.

Yay! Thank you!

Which leads us to Chapter 10:  “Prior Disturbances Come to Haunt”

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This is dealing with the kidnapping. 😦

Not a whole lot of data on that as it doesn’t keep to the happily ever after content seen earlier. I knew to make it authentic I would have to channel even further, and it was rough! Barnabas is coming to terms with the knowledge more suffering is coming. Maggie, even as Josette, is not going to magically forget the kidnapping. So with this chapter his friend Julia Hoffman has to come and spend some time going over the details with him. He lightens the conversation with inquiries about Professor Stokes proposal to her, but Julia won’t be distracted.

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I liked this chapter and Julia :). Ah, congrats to her and Eliot! While I do share her concern, I do agree that Maggie needs to deliver some pay back for her ordeal in captivity (which I mentioned before in your previous uploads). Looking forward to what happens next 😉

Yes, I wasn’t sure where their marriage would happen in the radio drama so I kept things somewhat vague. I’m glad you were aware of the craziness I was going through. Some of those old drafts were downright demonic and weird. I just didn’t have anyone to turn to in what was happening to me.

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As ever you leave the reader thirsting for more…so to speak!

Thank you! I was surprised how much longer the healing process was going to go on. I’d experienced the Healing chapters before but as “Margaret Josette Dupres” was unfolding more of a story than the romance vignettes it began as, I found unique occurrences I hadn’t seen before. And my being able to was created by the fact people were reading and reviewing the work. ^_^  The previous run was very sparse. I really felt all alone most of the time in it.

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Chapter 11: “A Tender Retreat” shows Maggie contemplating all the horrors, and how to rise from them. She speaks in first person, whereas for Chapter 10 Barnabas was speaking. She recalls being Josette, but she also recalls the terror he gave her during her current life. He was driven mad, but it doesn’t change the fact it happened. So our couple face a very sad loneliness, not spending much time together minus in the hours of their slumber. They both realize this has to be faced and maintain some distance while Maggie works herself through it.

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So poignant and beautifully written. I felt her anguish fear and dread. As well as Barnabas’ longing to quell the fear that he is still the monster that locked her in the coffin!

Yes! Thank you! Very insightful to read this commentary and that chapter was tough to get out, really. Doing a relief series one doesn’t want to go down this road, but being a study of psychology, one knows it has to come.

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Loved it! I don’t like sad MJD though…makes me sad. I think her talking to Willie is a brilliant idea, she’s sort of seeking out a kindred spirit in him, knowing that they’ve both suffered some sort of abuse from our at-times deranged vampire. And poor Barnabas, knowing he’s the reason for her sadness has to be soul crushing.

Aye! Just all this hurt, but the comments on experiencing that with the one putting it out there is incredibly helpful. I realized Willie Loomis would be the confidant she would seek, which was wild because I’d written the following chapter about his Wyndcliff experience a very long time before this one leading up to it!

Helena, chapter 11 
And I agree that she wouldn’t (Too bad the show had Vampire Angelique to erase her memory when Maggie did remember the kidnapping. Ah, YouTube…). I felt Maggie’s hurt and anger, which you expressed well, Daryl. Waiting for chapter 12 😉

Indeed. There actually is a lot of things to sift through when doing Interruption fanwork. If one interrupts Dark Shadows what stays and what goes? For The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows we have Maggie going through regression right AS Angelique awakens as a vampire. I felt it was very fitting considering Josette and Angelique were friends. They’re both going through a major change simultaneously. Didn’t really plan it, but when it happened I was floored. And I must chuckle at the youtube mention, where many of us poorer fans must go to retrieve data.

I give my hearty thanks to these reviews. Ones for the radio drama coming so slowly and sporadically it’s hard to move faster with the series, but this tended to have enough to push me forward and share more.

Not much for The “Healing” chapters but a good show for “Willie’s Wounds” so I think my next note will comprise those four chapters and their reviews. Helena made it through all the suspense with me of each Healing chapter. Which I’m very grateful for as it was tough. I didn’t even want to post the 2nd part with a photo. It was just too dark and painful. I’ll post more about that later.

Meanwhile, I have to edit in music for poor Willie’s confrontation with Barnabas in The Pit of Ultimate Dark Shadows. I guess over all things are rather gloomy today. Even the sky is overcast which I normally prefer, but today it lends to the slight feeling of sorrow in such a tale.

Take care, everyone.

Analysis of Preferred Pairings for Barnabas Collins… Extended, # 1 & 2

#1) Angelique Bouchard

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Just plain koo-koo?

“The fans of this pairing aren’t but there is something upsetting them so much to feel sorry for her or it stems back to the playful deviousness. Again, I hope it’s playful!”

As it turns out, it is. Thank you, Goddess, Mother Mary, Diana, Artemis, Theotokos, Guan-Yin, Hecate, any goddess out there! Truly, I thank you! There are wonderful people who pursue RPG derivatives of Angelique on many DS fanpages and they expound words to the effect of, “He lusts me, and that is good enough.” Yes, my sweet Angelique. It is good enough. In fact it is what I predisposed long, long ago.


However that is not the only element of some fans. I highly admire the playful deviousness. They know what they are about but a few others believe in the romanticism. They simply and strait-forwardly like Angelique/Barnabas, whether it’s because Parker/Frid look good together for them, or they see a romanticism of destruction turning to the wonder of beauty regardless of all the deaths that happened, whoever much mattered in those deaths, but somehow things turned around. It’s a beauty to be savoured, a power that could not be withheld. It is Angelique/Barnabas, it happened, it’s royal, it’s somehow against all odds.

Very good. 🙂


Sadly, after that, are several who identify with Angelique as pushing the limits, offering herself beyond the call, regardless of whether that caused destruction to so many, she still deserves far more than she got. Why? I can only speculate. Is it because she was picked from convenience? Is it because she was pursued for lust, mistook that for love, and wanted to make the biggest stink about it all that the soap opera world ever witnessed? Perhaps…

But what of the fans of her? Some are as listed above. They are playful, they are romantics. These things make sense. But there are people who become incredibly upset that Barnabas did not love her. What of them?

One way or another, they either are, or believe they are, someone who deserved better, someone who was overused, abused, discarded, left to rot. (My 7-Month troll, unless she desires to continue further, is a prime example of this.) They are so self-absorbed they can’t remember what happened yesterday because they are still so fixated on what happened seventeen years ago. The very idea that who they want does not want them is decidedly hostile, even if there are scores of friends surrounding them who do want these individuals for themselves. Those people who care matter not. It is the annihilation or the possession toward those they are obsessed with. The fact that these fans care so much about that? Waste of faculties, waste of life, waste of humanity. It troubles me. It troubles me greatly. (And I often feel that way when human energy and potential is lost.)

It is one thing to enjoy a love/hate relationship on a television show or even in a book series. It is another entirely to make it a life-long habit. 😦


#2) Julia Hoffman

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You thought #1 was bad? This one is worse. 😦

I’ve scoured for fans of the pairing I found obvious for a relief series. I don’t want popularity. I want my people. Just to get my series finished with those who would enjoy talking about it so I, myself, will have the healthy human interaction I require as a human being to complete it.

In my studies I found Barnabas Collins had longings for:

Maggie Evans

Victoria Winters

Rachel Drummond

Kitty Soames, because she was a reincarnation of Josette Dupres

and

Roxanne Drew.

And he is/was undeniably and hopelessly in love with Josette Dupres, who loved or loves him equally as strong.


He lusted Angelique.

and…

Never reciprocated Julia Hoffman’s romantic affections minus Sam Hall’s TV Guide wrap-up, which completely dismissed what became of Willie Loomis.

As I say in one of my podcasts, it makes sense that there are stories of this pairing, but the extreme wealth of it without an even-split? Stacks of Dark Shadows fanzines since the 1980s have been printed with stories almost exclusively of this pairing.

I wonder who was in charge of that objective? I wonder, but the point is a condition of control.

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This almost destroyed my Sherlock Holmes mind attempting to discover the reason for it… but I finally did.

Doctor Julia Hoffman, an icon of Women’s Liberation in the 1960s. A strong woman, a doctor, a psychologist, an intellectual… but with one unfortunate failing:

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Unrequited love.

Ah, haven’t we all had it? Well… I guess I started earlier than some: 5th grade. I was rejected. 6th grade? A few successes which led to uncertainty and then more rejection. Sad… And later? More attempts, more fails, more weirdness, more alienation, more boyfriends, more plain friends, more even odder relationships. More going steady, a few one-night-stands, more sex-less make-out flings, more bizarre entanglements between friendship, lust, the idea of true-love… and then?

I got married…

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to the best friend I ever had. ❤

Hey, maybe we all can’t be so lucky. All I know is we reciprocated each other in romance and sexuality. I experienced my variety of love until I found the person who cared the most about me. I’ve never had to make him love me, I never thought he should, he truthfully does.

What did Julia Hoffman and Barnabas Collins do? Julia wished. Barnabas didn’t. Period. One wise fellow I met online has expressed, “In romance? The man wasn’t shy.”

As it turns out there are the sympathizers and then there are the extremists of Julia/Barnabas. The extremists are the types who put their entire lives in the pursuance of partners who treated them miserably. Their partners took all they had to offer, either cheated on them or spent all the profit from their lovers to their own self-indulgence, and then eventually left these hard working sweethearts in the dust.

All right. Let’s say there is a strong woman out there who feels unloved, under-appreciated, unhappy or all of the above. What is the healthy course of action for her?

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Go on a journey of new experiences, explore those as well as herself, write her own story and grow from that.

Ah, yes. That is the healthy course of action. Very good. 🙂

What is the unhealthy course of action?

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“Read my Julia/Barnabas fanfiction! READ IT! READ IT OR ELSE!”

Okay, only a few of these people get that extreme. But generally the unhealthy course of action is to identify with Julia Hoffman’s unrequited love so strongly that Julia herself becomes unimportant, as well as Barnabas Collins. It’s the symbolism of uniting them and convincing others to make it fit into their heads. Julia sympathizers don’t do this. Julia extremists do. Push out a romance that never occurred on Dark Shadows. Push it all over the place, pursue it to the ends of the Earth. Make others believe in it. Write more stories about them, create a new universe of Dark Shadows outside what was aired on television and not following the original characters behaviour, at least in this aspect. (And by which, scare other fans into silence.)

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Barnabas Collins is now a symbol of the man who should have loved someone and is no longer himself.

This is what makes Julia sympathizers different from the extremists. Sympathizers enjoy the stories and feel better.

Extremists do not. They briefly feel better if they’ve won a fan over and then go looking for more people to pursue it with. They harness this relationship as what should have happened in their own lives. They neither Eat, Pray, nor Love. They are threatened by other stories of Barnabas loving a different lady, especially a “sweet-young-thing”. They criticize anyone who gets in their way, they angrily shake their fists at Barnabas Collins for not loving Julia. They aren’t relieved by their stories except briefly. They write more trying to believe it’s true or could have happened. The fact that these fans care so desperately about that? Waste of faculties, waste of life, waste of humanity. It troubles me. It troubles me greatly.

“Well you just wouldn’t understand, Daryl!”

Oh, wouldn’t I?

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I have created a radio drama in podcast form, in audio, to see what would happen if all of these characters got the help they needed from other spooky characters. I created it to share in the expectation I’d find several people who wanted to discuss it with me and find people of like mind. For friendship and help. I did this with all of my empathy, talent, savings, hopes, and dreams of what it could be and perhaps still can be. I received silence for 19 months for all of my pains with only the text. Now it’s downloaded continually and I barely hear from anyone enjoying it.

I live a lonely life looking for friendship and have been cast aside by many friends and relations. I made people laugh and they didn’t reciprocate me with discussion about it. Many still do not. They download a free entertainment that has turned my life upside-down from so much lack of report to it’s enjoyment from presumably uncaring, but mainly silent people, many of whom are too scared to admit they did so. For my love and hurt I am receiving the same silence Barnabas gives Julia in answer to her romantic yearning for him.

I have also worked in medicine and been a therapist, a teacher, a helper, with a deep understanding of psychology.

Why wouldn’t I understand? Of course I do.

Really, who is Dr. Julia Hoffman around here?

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She’s me. ❤