Well, I’ve been through the ringer and back and here I am. It’s gotten to the point where I’m so close to restoring the magic but what will it take to get there? Discussion. I posted how empty and lifeless I was feeling, hoping that February would kick start after the Hell of January was over. Looks like the Hell still isn’t over. Almost everywhere I look people are still distracted or they’re falling to pieces.
That makes me wonder what sense of suffering my listeners endure and due to that suffering they understand the major pairing so much more. Still, it doesn’t change the fact that they’re suffering and therefore let me know, “Um… I haven’t listened to the episodes yet.” Great, so who did enjoy all that dramatic crap I had to go through for Episode 12, anyway? I know 13 reached some people who said a bit and knew it was coming, oddly the scream match from the first scene in 13 was a high prize indeed. So… did the points of it come across or was it just the dramatic essence of it? Actually, I’m slightly aware that one portion carried through. Ah… bookclub discussion. What a concept. Anyone know any bookclubs out there? Maybe they could pick up on this.
Finally had a good weep last night and likely long overdue. Beats all the rages I’ve gone into for the last year getting harassed and dealing with the DS clutter, heck, a lot of the clutter from all the fandoms. An online entertainer looking for the chat to refuel the energy and then being told not to ask for it, or just having my questions ignored. It’s humour and tons more. Then tweaked out haters posting crap about me where I can’t see it anyway. So address me just randomly where I can’t see it when my email address is… I dunno… EVERYWHERE? Talk about twisted. Free advertising, yo! I was wondering why my downloads got so high all of a sudden when I wasn’t posting anywhere. DOY! How many people got that free advertising, took a listen and thought, “What the hell are they complaining about? This is entertaining and sounds like hard work, too!”
Then people invalidating what I’m doing and my research and then wondering why I blocked them. Double-duh. “Huh? Where’d she go?” Away from your sorry sight. And I’ve seen it all before, too! In school. And then, “Oh, just ignore the negative.” Um, with no positive towards the work? Not bloody likely. Any one around here remember people saying ignore the bullies at school, and then… the same people send you back to said school to endure them? WTF?
Actually one guy who mentioned how the 1840 episode of Barnabas really loving Angelique made him worry his head would explode? I mentioned to him coming in to so many freaky fans was like a psychologist’s dream… or nightmare… I’m not sure which. He seemed to dig on that. I remember him saying a while back, “This is pretty heavy, but you should see some Tom Waits fans.” LOL! I know a few, never saw behavior like this… okay, maybe a little. (Actually there is a Tom Waits song I’d like to use for a podcast.)
I think one of the troubles is the catch-up from 19 months of material and then creating the audio, then the technical aspects and not getting the help, except from Written In Blood, Hallelujah! Making it easily accessible was not easy. But audio is more attractive to a lot of people than text. Plus, as the previous post mentioned, this reaches vaster realms and a DS series with so many fun extras? It’s gonna be the youthful, gregarious girl Mr. Big Cake gets. Those shows wouldn’t go down the usual lines of DS work. So we’re hitting up those types anyway, the Dark Shadows lovers, which was what I wanted, not the Dark Shadows junkies. The people who love the characters rather than all of the bickering. And they love the spooky, and the humour Dark Shadows does naturally have. It’s there. As in an earlier episode where Victoria and Carolyn wonder where one could go on a date. They laugh, “Well, you could go to The Blue Whale and get mixed up in a fist brawl.” LOL (I’d watched soap operas before. I never saw humour like this in any of them.)
Another trouble is… *sigh*
He’s a tough one, but I have missed him. Writing him in text isn’t nearly as fascinating, scary, difficult, nor as rewarding as the tandem we shared over a year ago as I learned to have and to hold with both channeling, writing, and acting his performance. It is truly another world when this man takes over your being. I don’t think I ever would have fallen in love with him if it wasn’t for tapping in to his character so damn closely. But it’s hard to adopt this baby and then send him forth with no caring words as to how people feel in what comes out. (Two scenes are out now and so little has been voiced for him already.)
Strangely there is one point of motivation, and it’s not Episode 14, it’s Episode 15. It needs work in the writing, but not much and I feel like that is the final step in getting the magic to return to this series, finally. Episode 15 engages more character changes, with Willie looking back at how Professor Stokes treated him in his calligraphy work and what effect that had on him, as he relates it to Wadsworth. Episode 15 has Angelique returning as a vampire, and even beginning to question herself after some humourous foibles. Things aren’t working out as they once did. Why aren’t they? And now that I’m thinking about it, who am I, anyway? And what have I been doing all this time?
Also this is at the point I’m going to try and narrow down the length of time via word count as best I can by Episode 16. (I do remember how I developed the lay-outs before in text, but I realize I’ll be a little rusty before the inspiration returns.) If 14 is done 15 can get into full swing, as well as the whole series again. 🙂
Episode 15 has announcements and plans, people meeting who haven’t met before, things starting to change both for the better and for the worse. And after that? With enough support? Well, look at what I’ve already done. You think I’m not capable of that magic again? Remember, when Helena stepped in I went from writing one episode a month to writing four in October of 2013. And when I chunked the text in exasperation of neglect? (I was positive with the audio I’d get the support easily. No. Oops.) I created six podcasts by November of the same year with the radio drama episodes attached. I told everyone how this works in my seventh intro. Does anyone want it to go faster? That’s the question.
So looking over the commentary for Episodes it looks like just enough for Ep. 5 has happened! Excellent to see the kind of slice I’m looking for:
I looked over Episode 6 and it appears to have just squeaked out enough. It is Episode 7 that’s lacking one fairly chunky discourse, but of course, I must love this for Episode 7: “The Blair Warlock Projected”
Comments such as, “What the Hell? Hahahahaha!” well… you have no idea how this alone has cheered me up. People who can’t say much can always throw in bits like that. They’re delicious appetizers. And are so repeatedly. This is why commentary is good. People like me re-find them and get tickled all over again. (I’m rather certain this was in response to the episode title. I told ya it was funny!)
Ah! Back to the point. So it’s Episode 7 that needs one more big hug. (Episode 8 seems also to have squeaked by with the needed five.) Episode 9 “The Wisdom of Mayhem requires one more on the details of it’s delight. Episode 10 “The Kids Are Alright” requires one more. Episode 11 is split in two parts, so part one requires just another good comment, while part two still requires two different ones. (Man, I guess the ghost of Caleb Collins truly is that scary.)
However the one that requires 3 sets of comments is Episode 12 “Dark Therapy” which is the darkest one so far but still has quite a bit of humour, especially in that huge list of inventions between 1795-1968. (That was a ton of homework for me btw.) I’m curious if anyone felt completely sunk by that last line and the ending song. Verne Langdon actually singing it is pretty heartfelt and depressing when I’d only known instrumentals of it for so long.
Also Episode 13 requires 3 sets of comments. That one was TRULY a pain to edit. Good night, Irene.
A-ha. The damage for lack of just enough commentary isn’t so bad as I thought. With 13 Episodes finished we just need 11 to:
Simply put to solve the trouble, bookclub commentary, or even bullet lists of what was laughed at, are needed for:
Episode 7: The Blair Warlock Projected
Episode 9: The Wisdom of Mayhem
Episode 10: The Kids Are Alright
PART ONE of Episode 11:
PART TWO: of Episode 11:
Episode 12 “Dark Therapy”
Episode 13 “A Balancing of The Humours”
All links provided allow for anonymous commentary. And then what shall we get?
Thanks for your support. 🙂